For context, im a grad school student 32 y/o booting up some hearthstone in my free time. In past ive reached legend, I try to play for some entertainment on the side.
The issue now is that I’m getting too upset when i find myself getting ‘unlucky’.
I log in with a positive mindset. 20 minutes in I find myself clenching my fists, gritting my teeth, and ranting loudly. If my family/loved ones ask me what’s wrong, I lie so that they aren’t shocked by the silly reason i’m upset.
From my point of view, i lose most coin tosses. Things like when my opponent chain discovers the perfect answer. Or random damage hitting perfectly, or getting only summon outcome that wins etc. These things happening multiple times each game just aggravate the crap out of me.
Also, my set has some good decks but is incomplete. And losing to a player having better cards in their collection makes it a helpless moment. These ‘titan legendaries’ for instance, they win the match the moment they are played. My board is removed, the opponent has 20-20 worth of stats out of thin air and more. Screw those overpowered, legendary cards.
I still have that urge to play hearthstone. I am just as competitive as i was before. Issue is that i just suck, and all my losses are full of anger and disappointment. I do think it’s a me issue. And im wondering if its better for me to abandon the game.
Appreciate your thoughts?