I liked Sylvanas and Saurfang as characters before this expansion.
I liked Saurfang in part because of the pork speech. It was powerful and it resonated with me. I liked that he was strong, but he recognized the necessity of not just being a headstrong, rush in there warrior sometimes. And I liked the concept of him being the younger brother of Broxigar. The idea of living in the shadow of his brother’s final sacrifice. That he stood as a testament of the orcs’ steadfast desire to never return to what they once were and the need to fight back against oppression.
I liked Sylvanas because I found her a fascinating character. How aggressively she pursued what she wanted in life. How she took charge of her life after what Arthas did to her and embraced the Forsaken as she did. I like how she was willing to do what it was necessary to get what she wanted. And the quiet sentimentality of her character. The way she treated the player character as a confidant sometimes. How she clearly cared about Nathanos, but had a playful habit of getting under his skin. Arthas made her a monster, but she was never just a monster.
And I hate that BfA took everything I loved about both of those characters and threw it straight into the garbage.
So, right now, I don’t know.
I don’t want to support Sylvanas as she is now. I don’t want the Horde to be the villains anymore than most of you do. I hate having this narrative constantly forced on us. How the Alliance’s shortcomings are sanded away with magical water, character development, or just plain retcons. But the Horde’s shortcomings are flanderized to such extreme extents. I hate the idea of losing one of the last original Horde leaders we had as she’s beaten into the shape of a generic villain. I hate the idea of just sitting here and accepting the narrative that Sylvanas is bad and the only way to save the ~spirit of the Horde~ is to kill her.
In a two faction game, I am so tired of fighting my own faction more than I ever get to fight the Alliance.
And part of me feels like the only way to take back my agency is to spit in the face of the narrative path the game clearly wants me to walk down. The writers clearly want me to go “Sylvanas is bad and must die” and I want to resist that. Because up until this expansion, I never once thought that. And the only reason I think that now is because the writers are just going to keep ratcheting up the genocide and awful until everyone agrees with them.
I don’t like being evil, but I don’t like that I’m in this position to begin with. That I’m in the position where the writers think that they just need to keep killing off characters I like until I agree with them.
And maybe that’s childish. Maybe I should stick with Saurfang, play out MoP 2.0, kill another warchief, and pretend like justice has been served. We’ve killed the bad guy. What a great raid tier. How exciting is it to run through another Horde capital and kill characters I used to like distorted to the point I don’t even recognize them.
But I hate the idea of what that would mean. That that would mean another round of going ‘look, here’s the Horde, they’re clearly incapable of doing anything but failing without the masterful guiding hand of the Alliance’. How every “good” Horde character has to have a human friend or Alliance buddy to show them how to be good people.
I’m just so tired of all of this. As it stands now, I haven’t taken the Saurfang quest, so I haven’t sided with either officially. I was hoping that ‘screw all of this’ quest that was datamined was out there somewhere. Because ‘please delete this expansion and try again’ is the side I’m really on.