how are you all doing mentally these days?
very broad question, feel free to answer
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Going fine so far. We had our first snow now.
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let’s see
according to this list I’ve made in my head I wanted to:
end some insufferable people and their miserable lives
burn the city I’m in right now
binge eat mozzerella sticks while watching every episode of star trek
question if I would get away with theft
question why the hell everything costs so much
question why I’m still paying said prices
I haven’t done anything but its only a roll of the dice before I snap
does society feel lucky?
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Life is hard. Sometimes I feel lost.
I’ve recently got into Godspeed you! Black Emperor sort of i’ve been listening to this one song over and over and haven’t yet dug much deeper trough their discography.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzeKxkHbiSY
I can’t realy describe how the song feels to (Nostalgic maybe?). It sort of reminds me of my own solo music project im working on although the music I made was before I listenend to Godspee. Not currently working on the music at the moment. The Music I make does not sound similiar to Godspeed and is probably better described as a mix of Experimental, Industrial, Dungeon Synth or something I don’t realy know what I’m making either. I have not yet fully decided on a name but did have fun playing with some Ideas and making the Look like Death/Black Metal Logos with GIMP. Theres also a Folder full of Images that I tempered with to make “Album Covers” most will likely never get used.
I plan to begin making accounts and realese stuff in the next summer or maybe the year after probably starting with bandcamp. I am aware that my music has no mass appeal and if there exists a targed audience it is realy small and I probably wont be able to pay the bills with it.
This is the first time sharing something about the Project with the Internet and not close Person or people I know relativly well online. Also im sorry this reads like a stream of consciousness
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I kind of feel the same. I’m known for being very confrontational but within boundaries, however I never turn physical, irritating or manage to successfully embarrass my friends, even while drinking.
I’m feeling moody all the time, have been feeling the same way for half of my life but I never swing into one or the other extreme for too long. I was told by a fresh acquaintance that their first impression of me is as someone very pleasant to be around but that I myself necessarily don’t reciprocate the joy of being with other people in equal measure.
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Ya know what? I am done with these forums. The last notification I received over a post–that was linked to an official world of warcraft website that uses the naughty word–got nailed. Quoting Dawn of the Dead: Freaking nursery school.
Blast was right; not contributing anything here anyways.
I’m out.
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Of course, it’s your decision to stay or go, but on a personal level, I will miss you and your posts. With regard to the inconsistent moderation here and in game, I accept it, this is what happens when companies get rid of human beings and outsource moderation/account actions to an algorithm.
Blast is a bad example, but I share your sentiment somewhat. I have limited my comments as I feel I’m not contributing anything of worth to these forums, but eh, I’ve been more than usually depressed over the past few months.
That was a bunch of waffle, all I really wanted to say is I’ll miss reading your posts.
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Hopefully its not any serious. And whatever it is i hope you get the help you need.
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Hopefully Thanksgiving was nice for all of you yesterday. This turkey not so much.
I will miss you as well, even if I’m not here very often I have enjoyed our little chats and I am always happy whan I see that you respond to one of my posts. Well, hope to “see” you again, and if not thank you for all you contributions, it was always a pleasure to ready your posts 
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I hope things are better for you nowadays, I know it seems like an easy thing to say but I truly mean it. Through your posts you seem to be, at least from my perspective, such a caring person, and so even if you, as far as I understood, have been through a lot.
So even than if I’m less than a nobody here, I just wanted to say something nice to you as you always made me feel welcome here, since day one, when I was struggled with depression myself.
I sincerly hope you will beat this depression and see brighter days soon !
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great now who am I suppose to annoy
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me 
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hm
AS YOU WISH
but I am not legally obligated to accommodate to any hurt fee-fees
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Prepair to get stepped on Whitemane edition.
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My sibling in the Nexus, I ain’t free. My backside (you’re censorship disturbs me Blizzard) is still tied to this demented galaxy, and I am only coming back out of spite as I been lurking over the last few days. Mostly because it was an “Ah hell, I knee jerked.”.
I merely had a nuclear melt down over Blizzard’s extremely low tolerance for…everything. Just everything. If we all had an intellectual conversation–good job on no auto correct on here by the way–we’d all be getting the green mail notification. I was extremely bent out of shape concerning a lore rant concerning Deathwing (he’d smack everyone lore wise in WoW lore), so I went off despite being an adult and having should known gooder.
By the way Blizzard. YOUR FANDOM WEBSITE HAD THE WORD THAT I GOT SMACKED WITH.
In hindsight, I should not have quoted you, but whatever, that was me knee jerking.
I appreciate it, I’m still here, still waiting on us bumping into each other in the Nexus. You sneaky purple elf you. Had one or two matches I squinted at someone as they reminded me of you.
Punish me Mommy.
At this point, I regret my previous post.
It goes without saying, whatever standing I have–intetegrity or whatever–, took a nose dive with me coming back; don’t care. It’s the internet, we all trash ourselves at some point in time, and I am far past the point of caring.
I just came back out of spite of Vent/Blast/Gas or whatever they call themselves.
Now if I had not been quoted by a certain someone who vents all the time, I probably wouldn’t come back. Congratulations Vent; you are the reason I made this post. That is me being a petty individual.
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I wont go much into detail without getting hit by the hammer but this is just how it is nowdays. For myself I have considered many times when it was the right moment to leave but always comes back because I feel like i have commited too much of myself to this forum. Yea my post count says it all.
If you still enjoy playing the game and talk on this forum then you should continue doing so. If not then no one force you to stay.
I spend more time now in GW2 now cause that is what I enjoy now. I used to play many games in Hots in the past but now i only play when I feel like. 16k QM games have started to show its mark on me.
In GW I already found new people to play with and the community is much nicer. Its only in Strike missions and raids you might see a few toxic people but overall its a nice game. And the core game is F2P.
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If I didn’t play HotS as much as I do, I’d probably have left a long time ago, unfortunately–or fortunately–every time I fire it up, I recall the forums.
Oh, hey, this guy has a funny name, they would be a fine addition to that that one thread.
Or, hey, this would fall well into GG thread. Or that game was definitely worth of the Salt Mountain.
Does not help I sank cash into a one year xp pot. Yeah, sue me, I am a simp for HotS.
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When you are already invested into a game then its hard to leave it again cause you will feel like you wasted your time and money if you did.
And when you have involved yourself with people who was nice to you then it get even harder.
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I apologize for taking so long to reply. Your post was perhaps the kindest thing someone has said to me on the internet, and I’m terrible at handling anything the resembles a complement, hence the late reply.
Posters, such as yourself, are why I keep coming back to this community. There are so many creative, thoughtful and kind people who contribute to these forums which contribute to the feeling of community that, in my experience, is unusual in present day context.
Thank you again, and best wishes for the festive season.
I’m glad that you have returned, and I understand your frustration with how Blizzard moderates their games and forums. Like you, I do my very best to keep my posts super G rated, yet my only suspension on the forums was for posting that people should be more respectful of each other, in a thread that had become very heated. That was considered “off-topic” and warranted a day suspension, yet there are other posts here from people wishing death on others that are still up years after they were first posted.
Oi, if I do see you in a vs AI game, I do promise to try to overcome my anxiety and say hello!
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