It’s OK.
Yes, I can be insecure. That’s why I know a lot of things. That’s why I push my limits and try to be better at things, including the game. The need to prove myself to myself. To others, even, sometimes, some people, at least.
Not everyone can make me feel insecure or hurt me. But when people do that to me, I know it’s my fault, not theirs. It’s my fault I even allowed myself to get engaged in this battle of egos. It’s my fault others’ opinions meant enough to me at that moment to start posting proofs which noone:
a) reads,
b) cares about,
c) accepts when they do read.
But seeing all those proofs, knowing first-hand how good I can be both as a player and as a member of the forum, and despite all of that calling me out without proof of any kind, and together in a band, that’s not something I expected from the users I got it from.
You have successfully betrayed everything you allegedly stand for, all 3 of you, and stooped very low, used very dishonest tactics, and for what? What did you get out of it?
Even if I somehow crossed the line and get banned, you know that won’t be the end of me here. We’ve been through all of that, and I’m still here.
Even if I did lie about everything, will that change the facts that one of you spams and doomposts 20 thousand of same things and uses emotional manipulation when they’re called out?
Will that change the fact that one of you used emotional manipulation, misquoting and a whole lot of other things to get ahead and got called out for it? And then:
a) reported me for calling them out for what they did (even though they did that to someone else and again they got called out for this),
b) put me on ignore (which they said they don’t support and would never do).
Will that change that one of you prouded themselves for being fair and then used dishonest tactics to kick me where it hurts, when I’m low, even though it wouldn’t help his case because I literally have proof about being in top 80 - 800 the whole time?
Will that change the fact none of you play in my ranks? Or even play standard anymore? One of you plays wild, the other one Battlegrounds, and the last one doesn’t even play anymore.
How will that change?
I wish you all good luck. It sounds to me that you need it.