A little backstory early on I wanted to avoid any guild as I played back in WoD and got burnt out from countless raiding and never really progressing that guild was also guilty because I was never offered to do Blackhand when we got to him. Needless to say I quit due to burnout and lack of content. I went and played BDO for awhile but also got burnt out as I hate excessive pvp. I rejoined during the first LFR wing of Nzoth and hit 120 on my main. I started to do mythics but wanted to pressure myself for +Mythic runs.
Now enters my new Guild I warned the GM first off in a private chat when they offered me to join I was not going to pressure myself again and the game would be for me to enjoy but I wanted to help as it also helped me. They understood and I was given a warm welcome. I ran a few keys with them and enjoyed it. A couple weeks later I noticed I wanted to push myself a little as I liked to raid so I used my unnatural luck to get into some streamer keys as well as push myself forward. I knew for a fact I needed to get better and although they were streamer carries that meant I had to learn and adjust. I got some semi high keys for our guild +12-15 and even invited some guildies to bash away at them for a chance at the chest. Some were thankful and included me others not so much.
Another month down its hard as BFA was burning some out some even Gquit and most of the people I tried to help were leaving. We as a guild finally got enough people for Nyalotha I had done research ran as a pug and even studied some in LFR to a science FYI (I hate Nzoth how many ppl forget to use one button is amazing). Yet when raid night came even though I signed up several had in fact only a few were taken. Okay maybe I was late to sign up maybe they could only accept 10 ppl. It was whatever. I decided to level a healer as I saw our M+ groups didnt appear to have that many keyword appear. Suddenly my healer was accepted for a couple weeks. Later on I would be whispered maybe if they needed me. However as for my main even if I offered to just help they would be full. Raids weren’t too important after awhile so I stopped caring.
The hit came when it came to mythic+ I was decently geared after streamers and other means but whenever I got a key to push I would ask in gchat first. No one answered Id ask maybe 4-5 times over a day but then give up. The insult came one day when my intuition kicked in and said look at the guild members. Sure enough one of the people I pugged was in a group with 4 other guildies in a mythic+12-15 the very keys I had been asking for. This happened consistently for over a couple months. He always asked if he could do my keys with me and even would say he’d help me later it never came. I tried asking other guildies about the keys they said they didnt have time or were busy yet I began to notice anytime they said this they either shortly joined after or were in one even raids began to go that way.
As if that wasn’t enough they eventually had one of their real life friends join who was the same class and spec as me. He was less geared at the time and did less dps but later we were equal I researched guides constantly did reviews whatever I could do keep in line with him. I couldnt and was pushed to the wayside theyd always brag about his dps but never say anything when I’d be ahead of him just ignore it. It didnt feel like a friendly competition it felt like a favoritism. They kept doing mythic+ and eventually I couldnt get my regulars anymore so I held off till SL. Doing things with my alts one time I noticed someone said welcome but said nvm when he found out it was one of my alts.
I know discord is a thing now so you’d think well maybe they are in discord so am I and sometimes one of them is in their with me just to disappear to another channel directly below me without saying one word.
Finally Shadowlands is out I’m leveling at my pace and can finally do mythics its the first week and they might have already did them. I’ll try next week send a message they said they’ve done them okay. But then the guy I leached for hits 60 and guess what they do. They go out of their way to do mythics with him. I’m so fed up not only did I not get random grats from some god knows hard achieves such as the long one to get all 12 class order hall campaigns done loremaster of Shadowlands killing all the stupid rares in the maw and getting make it double before any of them. Which I’ll add insult to injury because the moment after I got these hard cheeves someone 15 minutes later got into the maw and it got 7 grats.
Yesterday I showed my contempt in a long time because one new guildmate asks if were doing Nathria which over 20ppl signed up for and the guild leader said we have a good amount interested I interjected but how many are actually going. In which the GM retorted 2/2/6 which I’ll be honest I already know who are are going and again I happen to be the most geared (I know how to pug well) but I guarantee I’m not one. I’m wondering am I right is this guild just keeping me as fodder or am I just being a prude.
