Will it let you go back in to edit the post or undo it?
Led to some good storytelling in both cases
Hot Rod having to become Rodimus prime was a nice touch
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If nothing else being depressed does seem to bring out a creative spark in me. A bit dark but creative.
I am not me, yet how can this be.
The person in the mirror she isnāt me.
This is not my hair, this isnāt my face.
When did I become such a disgrace.
Inside my head laughing faces leer.
I rip at my flesh to hide all my tears.
So I just stood there and stared out at
my broken dreams.
Then I cast back my head and I let out
a scream.
I laughed to myself as I wept to the crowd.
Begged for forgiveness as I cursed god
Out loud.
Remembering back to when I was a child.
A place full of laughter a time full of smiles.
A time back before this body was claimed.
By the madness thatās now destroying my
brain.
Trapped in this hell day after day.
Me? I am lost, you donāt have to stay.
All that remains are shattered pieces of a
heart, soul and mind.
So go on without me, I cannot go this time.
So I stood and I laughed amid the tears I
was crying.
Remembering when I knew life in this place
where Iām now dying.
So wept to myself while laughing out loud.
To be another face that was lost in the crowd.
One of these days this body will die.
No more tears will fall from these lifeless eyes.
Donāt mourn my passing keep your eyes dry.
I am not worth it, so donāt say goodbye.
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Truly art my dearest Izzy, Iām proud of you
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Iām just going to let it go, I tried to undo the delete no go. I have TL3, I donāt want to lose it.
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hugs Why thank dear Fleb, it is nice to see you back to your old bony self again.
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True literary fact: Jack London was a dyed-in-the-wool Communist who killed himself over the financial success of Call of the Wild.
White Fang was his āode to Communismā while Call of the Wild was intended to be the ālook at how horrible individualism isā story. Problem is, Call of the Wild was more successful both literary and financially than White Fang and despairing that people loved the themes of Call of the Wild more, Jack London killed himself.
John Steinbeck, similarly, was a die-hard Communist as well but later recanted after he became financially successful.
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Oye, yep - dark
Very artistic and creative though
/hugs
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I may be overstepping my bounds here but I gotta ask. Are you doing ok, Hon? Itās a lovely raw piece you have written here. The mom in me is concerned though.
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We all go back to our root and being a man of bones showing again feel great and no more painful waxing anymore!
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walking dead joke
whats glennās favorite restaurant? its Popeyes! 
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Plenty more dining choices Iām finding too 
hugs oh thank you for the He Inferno Punch it was great.
I just wish this creativecsidecwouldcwake up m characters so that I could write in mine and Raves rp.
bunny hugs. thank you. No Iām not okay, but Iāve read that it is okay to not be okay.
Your bony is your best self, oh my is that hair on your head that I seeā¦
Queue sinister laughter.
Just kidding.
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Mhm, one of the undead best feature.
Donāt scare me like that woman, being bald is no fun 8(
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What is self value?
Even gems are without worth.
The open heart sees.
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True
One of my own lifelines puts it slightly different
āStep 1 in dealing with depression is not faking that life is wonderfulā
Does the writing help (just thinking about it in my own battles)
nicely done
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hands you half of his bear sandwich made by Surfy
Sorry to see youāre not doing well, Izzy. Hopefully, things will start turning around much sooner rather than later. But at least you know where we are if you need to blow off steam 
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Iām so use to faking that life is wonderful. I was told that I should fake it until I believe it. Itās been well over 30 years Iām still not believing it. I also fake it at times for my daughter who has severe anxiety and depression.
Yes for me writing helps a little bit. It gives me an outlet.
Takes the bear sandwich, Thank you.
Takes a bite. when you say made by Surfy, you mean made by her, not of her. You know lying bears that try and change into cats, trees, and birds to fool the unknowing.
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Nope. Made by Surfy. Surfy is a nice Nelfy lady who occasionally has to get grabbyhanded with me because I get into too much trouble! Sheās not a bear!
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I have been guilty of this myself. I did want to point out that there is a difference in being drawn to the positive, strange, and beautiful things in life and simply faking happiness. As a mom I have had to put on a brave face for them only to shut myself away and let all the emotions loose. When I am deep in depression itās like I have blinders on. I only see that which is dark and my emotions. On better days I know my triggers so I try to limit things like the news and the down right nastiness of people. It isnāt sheltering my view so much as protecting myself until I can better handle things. What we take in becomes our thoughts and will lead our emotions. We get to choose our thoughts. We can have emotions without needing to act upon them. And thank goodness that it does not matter what anyone else things of us! Their thoughts do not determine our ultimate worth. While in the trenches itās easy to forget these things. Justā¦if it gets overwhelming as life does please reach out to your loved ones. Be they family, across the country, or here on the forums. Life is hard. You donāt have to do it all alone.
(Sorry for the wall of text)
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