Congratulations, you have managed to match my record!
I was doing SL and I lost a few so just said, keep playing until it turns. Well.
In retrospect I frame it as science, realizing that after losing so many, you start losing more points.
If only I could test the same with wins!
Sometimes it helps to tell the team that it’s rough.
I can’t pinpoint the time but I had several minor loss streaks (8-10) and not handling it well.
A couple years later I also managed a nasty evening of 15 losses with Valla. And a win or two and a loss or two.
The crazy thing is, I usually did this to shortcut tilt.
A year or two ago I played specifically until the first loss each day. Usually with (truly) random heroes. I was relatively happy.
Then I lost for nearly two weeks. Plus a little as I was skipping.
At one point I realized - and I firmly believe - that our contribution to a win is tiny. Partly because that’s the job of MMR (as long as you influence, your rank shifts and eventually you can’t). So, as you say, it says less about you and more about your luck - or “how the game treats you”.
I had a rough time two months ago, mostly due to connection issues and then “loser bucket”, so to speak (it always happens, either some fancy MMR adjustment or troll detection). Played a few today: W, L, W, L, W, L. Match 4 was nice, long, close. I clearly had a “welcome back” feeling during the first match and then anti-streak swings in the rest. All results were deterministic. But it was fun to play!
Both that Valla and recently Johanna… I have this thing that when I lose a few and try to win, I just can’t. So with Jo I was like, I must be doing wrong but hey, I’m going to soak. It usually works. Nope. Going to rotate. Nope. Avoid TF, just get XP… nope. I lost so much, I can totally carry now! Nope, enemy is clearly a master stack.
However, if I get angry and start running into towers, we are ahead in xp, and I totally cannot lose.
So if I accept my fate and start playing, we fall behind.
So I restart feeding and the team pulls themselves together.
Puzzling.
One match I was similar mental state on Malfurion and decided not to heal. We were fine until level 8-10-12 when my team realized and started pinging. Eventually I started healing. At that point we started losing hard.
Lesson, TLDR: Don’t think. Just play. The Matrix is bigger than you.