I’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt here, and try one more time to be constructive - and I’m going to attempt to do so without sarcasm (it’s tough for me because sarcasm is how I mask my own emotional problems, but this topic isn’t about me).
Genuinely, I mean this: try putting the game down for a while.
If you’re being genuine here - which I’m choosing in good faith to trust you are - then you owe it to yourself, to care a bit more about yourself. A little “QT for the boo-ty,” as one of my friends would put it.
Come back when you’re in a better place mentally. And who knows? Maybe we can give you tips. Analyze your replays. Help you out a bit.