Kindly disregard this topic

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This topic was initially long-winded, and ultimately worthless. And so, I have decided to nip it and so please, let this topic die. The original context was of me apologizing for being belligerent and intoxicated. To my surprise, few players noticed, and less had a problem with it. There was no need to make this topic except to voice my guilt for what I may have said. As I have been forgiven numerous times, it’s clear the purpose has been served and there is now no reason for this discussion to continue.

Thank you all for participating, and my apologies if I rubbed anyone the wrong way.

Bon Voyage!

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I feel like… you’ve come to rely on these forums a bit too heavily as a method of social interaction.

Maybe step back a bit.

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Don’t think we had much interaction lately (though i did notice a couple of the posts) but at the end of the day, none of us are perfect and are subject to life’s imperfections, be it disorders or addictions or whatever else.

i can easily forgive that myself and would hope everyone else understands as well, and it’s also good to forgive yourself, and also to not give up on the difficult road of self-improvement.

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I’m sorry this is happening. If you ever need to chat, you’ve got my info.
I’m years sober and I sponsor a bunch of guys, so I’m in a good position to help if you’re interested.

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You are probably correct. I cherish this forum, not for what it is, but for what members that make it up. I don’t want to get too deeply into my mental disorders, but the biggest one is social phobia. I have a hard type communicating at times out of cowardice, which alcohol helps to extinguish.

@Jakkt: Are there any other good platforms I could start investing time and content to, aside from this forum? I have Twitter, but rely on that for updating from the users I follow. Reddit seems to be a difficult place to gain traction in the form of a community, and so feels as though a bunch of strangers are being thrown together under the banner of Hearthstone.

@WorriedCheese, I’ve given AA many chances. Due to my intelligence, it is so easy to see past the system that I cannot, in sincerity, partake in it. When I did try in the past, I felt like I was lying to everyone around me – I didn’t believe many of its teachings. What I am looking at, instead, is talk therapy, and taking my psychotropic drugs as prescribed. I should be back to being mentally normal quite soon.

I believe I can accomplish this myself, because I’m not an everyday drinker. I go on binges for days, maybe, about every two months. It always results in disaster. At this point, I have absolutely no intention to drink. Because of the nature of my drinking (being spaced out), I’m fortunately not experiencing any withdrawal symptoms.

Lastly, this has been eating me alive out of guilt. I am not looking for pity – I don’t deserve any. I would strongly appreciate if you guys can take it upon yours look past this, and give me one more chances.

Thanks, guys, and again, I am so sorry.

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You are taking this far, far too seriously. Best of luck going forward my man but this forum is completely and totally irrelevant in life’s schemes. Don’t let this become another addiction.

Again, best of luck. I have been a heavy drinker for a long time and understand the struggle.

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This forum isn’t an addiction for me. Nevertheless, I respect each and every player here – even those against which I disagree. This is why I felt the need to apologize to the best of my abilities.

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I think this forum is much healthier for you than the drink. I commend your openness and courage. Have away at the forums and take the drink minute by minute. I’m online often, if you need support, I’m here for you. I can also call you on my dime if you just need to talk through a hard time.

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I truly appreciate your offer! I know here I’m a downer Debby, but I couldn’t balance being cheerful, while also honest at the same time in this topic.

I’d like to thank those of you that have commented thusfar. Support like yours, even if brief, means far more to me than you might realize.

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Discord is becoming a decent medium for me. There’s a server for everything. Including people who struggle with depression, alcoholism and mental health issues where they can find people that can help or just be good company.

If you’re intent on using the internet, that is.

My personal opinion? Turn the phone and computer off for a week. See what happens. I deleted all my social media years ago and only visit here on rare occasions now. Much happier.

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Heres my email. I’ll leave it at that.

Kayley_canadian@yahoo.ca

The offer is there if you just need to chat. No pressure. We can just chat on blizz about the game. But, you should always have a safety net just in case. It may help you with a craving. Cheers

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Thanks for being such a great guy. Oh, and let’s not forget your help with my “challenge a friend” quest. Firs time I’ve had it myself, although I’ve participated in others before. 1,800 XP in ~3 minutes is pretty phenomenal. :smiley:

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Sometimes we look for support in the wrong places. I’m sure plenty here will empathise with you, but most are not equipped to help. Professional support is what you need :slightly_smiling_face:

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You’re 100% correct. I do therapy and am on mental health medications. I’m not coming here for change; I am coming here, fortunately, to apologize. I do feel terrible about this, but am glad I mustered the courage to make this topic.

And, of course, the positive replies are very reassuring, and so I thank each and eveyone of you.

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Open up the forum to see what people are complaining about…and run into this…

Kill, you are one of the bright lights on this forum. It’s all good. I, too, struggle with drinking, and have found myself spiraling recently as my wife dies of cancer.

Please know that I always look forward to a Killuminati post and we are all human and struggling with many different things. Keep doing you…. Wanted you to know you are appreciated.

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Kills, you didn’t owe us an apology, and I find the suggestion that you did obnoxious. This thread was a mistake.

… and for Pete’s sake, don’t apologize in response to this.

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Well, this is a partly selfish topic, wherein I needed to lift this guilt off of my shoulders. I appreciate your response, and maybe I’m being too hard on myself (not looking for pity (!)). I wanted to alleviate my guilt, and to apologize to anyone I may have argued with, my maniacal rambling, and so forth.

I won’t make a topic like this again. I’ve been wanting to apologize for my behavior last week since the day after I realized all I had posted – even if it wasn’t vulgar explicitly.

An as you implied earlier… I need to work on my tendency to apologize. This tendency has been transferred to me by my mother, who apologizes constantly. Another behavior I need to work on.

@ScrotieMcB: I don’t view this topic as a mistake, because it has helped me mentally to write and post it.

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I use to have a drinking problem, my problem was everytime I got drunk I’d end up buying blow too. Probably made this mistake 1000s of times in my life. Been sober for years. It’s not easy but you know what they say take it a day at a time!

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I’m going to work on it myself. I have support in the form of medication and therapy. If this fails (I don’t think it will, because I am determined at this point), I’ll look into further help.

Edit: @everyone – feel free to now flag this topic as inappropriate (or what have you). It served its purpose, and there’s not much left to be said. I got it off my chest and so mission accomplished. And the support of everyone that’s posted: thank you all, from the bottom of my heart.

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Social platform can be a dangerous place to seek IRL help as you are exposed to all forms of response. Some wishes well, other not so, and some provide bad advises even thou they wishes well.

Social platform is a place for things not to be taken seriously. (too hard to explain)

Difficult moments does not mean you ONLY need help from people. Sometimes, it is getting away from all the distractions and noise to do self-reflection/assessment.

If you are not in a clear state of mind, social platform only add to the distractions and noise.

You also probably need a good listener. Hope you find one. If not, nature can be a good listener for some.