When you spend most of your time quiet in a corner when you hang out with your friends IN A GAME. Damn dude, I suck.
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Is there something in particular that you struggle with in such situations? Wording? Timing? Just plain gumption?
I just feel out of place and then I start hating myself for feeling out of place when no one is pushing me away. Now I’m most likely going to spend the whole night just thinking. I hate thinking.
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Are these IRL friends, or purely in-game ones? Are they aware of your difficulties finding your place in the social circle?
It doesn’t seem like you struggle with wording, and that’s the hardest part IMO, so if you can tackle the timing and gumption parts even in part, you’ll probably have a much better time.
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You have friends in this game?
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Not sure if it adds anything to your plight but you seemed to have a perfectly normal interaction with our favourite DH fiend here. So kudos to you on that 
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Either I’m quiet with my friends or I’m fighting with my friends . If things starts to turn sour with my friends , than it’s ………… ganking time .
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They are in game friends, but this is just a general thing, I thought that it simply happened with IRL friends, hanging out in parties and such, but it’s just as bad in game. I simply can’t feel comfortable with others but I feel like an idiot for not being able to. I hate this.
Well, I’d tell you to calm down, but what you’re describing sounds a lot like social anxiety, so that would probably be the opposite of helpful.
Is there anyone you do feel comfortable with that you can have help you bridge those social gaps you’re feeling? Is there a specific group size that bothers you, or is it around even just one other person that this happens?
If you do think this might be social anxiety, have you sought any help or treatment for it?
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I don’t know, I just feel like I do better all on my own, people are just too much to deal with, I just feel drained and I keep thinking and thinking and I hate myself for doing that, I wish I could change, I take meds for anxiety but I don’t know, feels like it becomes less and less effective each day.
But I think what bothers me so much is knowing that the world will always require me to be social and I hate it, wish I could just live off somewhere secluded, living off the land on my own and should I fail at that I would just die which is something I already want, so whatever.
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Do you? Do you really though?
Maybe your expectations are just different. Maybe what you consider social interaction is more subdued?
Quiet isn’t bad, it’s just quiet.
For me personally, I hate small-talk, I can’t stand it. If you come up to me and randomly ask me if “I’m having a nice day” or “how’s the weather”, you will get an automated response and that’s it. If however you try to talk to me about life, politics, history ANYTHING but smalltalk then I will engage with you. Maybe Laudrian you just have different social standards, likes and dislikes.
I’d stop judging yourself so harshly and instead try to figure out what motivates you to engage with people.
Sorry, this was a bit of a rant, I hope it helps a bit.
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Embrace it friend.
I often only solo:
Practicing that social distancing life!
“friends” or acquaintances can’t be trusted anyway. Social networks are good examples of how fake everyone is. Stop trying to be like “the world” and just do what feels right to you. If you don’t feel like socializing, then don’t. If you want to be more social, then start off with simple greetings to others, then maybe some small meaningless chit chat to break the ice. Either way, forget about appealing to society and decide on your terms.
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Oof. Man, those are some heavy feels.
If you don’t feel like your currently prescribed medication is effective, I’d recommend consulting with your physician/psychiatrist about that. Another drug or a different dosage could really help, if such options are available.
Beyond that, I totally get the feeling of wanting to be alone. I’m an introvert myself, and that mostly manifests in the form of a sort of mental fatigue when I’ve been stuck in situations where I have to interact in voice comms or in person for too long. It’s probably not to the level that you’re experiencing it, but I at least have a glimpse of that general feeling.
I’m not gonna feed you a line about being able to completely eschew social interactions, because I honestly think that’d just be pretty words with no actual substance, but I can tell you with certainty that letting go of life is not a solution to any of its problems.
If you are at any point feeling like you’re passing beyond the point of no return, please reach out for help. I’ve been in that abyss before, and the only regret I have about seeking help is that I didn’t do it sooner.
If there’s anything I can do to help, don’t hesitate to look for me here on the forums or send me an in-game mail at Ohgodmyeyez-Hyjal (Horde) or Ohgödmyeyez-Stormrage (Alliance). I won’t put you or your situation on blast, whatever it may be, and even if all you need is someone to listen, I’ll be around.
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Theres all types of people, whos to say which are right and which are wrong? Theres a lot wrong with this extroverted go go go world we live in, just decide what you like and go with that, make up your own mind.
I appreciate it, it’s just that I just hating not belonging… It’s not because society tells me or anything of the sorts, I just never wanted to be whom I am, a loser that only worked part of the day and slept through the rest of it or how it is now with Corona and realistically speaking it has been this way for most of my life - A loser that just plays game as a way to distract the existence of real life, it’s like I grew up wanting to be the protagonist to end up being the hopeless extra.
Sometimes I just don’t know what to do, I wanna tell someone how I feel simply to let it out, my parents already know about how I feel and I don’t like bringing up this topic to them because it hurts them and I don’t wanna hurt anyone.
I am sorry I bothered you with this, I appreciate your comments.
Believe it or not, I know that feeling. My offer stands – if you ever need someone to talk to, you know where to find me. It’s no bother at all, so don’t hesitate if you ever feel the need for someone to bounce your thoughts off of.
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I tend to keep to myself in game and while online in general, but in real life I’m pretty talkative and out-going. Usually a lot more friendly, curious and empathetic as well.
But I used to be really shy and anti-social, which is kind of how I am online (moreso just keep to myself, but whatevs). So I know the feeling. But even people who are social have insecurities and get nervous. I’ve also found that it’s a skill you can develop like any other. Knowing both of those things helped a lot.
What do you mean? You have to talk to people to play the game. Haven’t you ever accepted a quest? The questgivers are players too, doing great work letting everyone else play. They are the mvps.