I’m sorry you’ve been hurt.
And I’m glad you asked about “toxic.”
Keep in mind, this is 2021, and there’s a lot of stupid privilege out in the wilds of real life humans where many use words they’ve heard used but have no real understanding of their correct usage.
Swearing, when directed at a situation and used in frustration, like on the 10th wipe on a specific mechanic and someone says, “OMFG, why does the fire always find MY feet? PLEASE FRAK RIGHT OFF STUPID FIRE AND LEAVE ME ALONE SO WE CAN ALL GET SOME SLEEP SOMETIME BEFORE THE TURN OF THE NEXT CENTURY!” is usually not only acceptable, but can be hilarious and helpful in allowing everyone a good laugh and dispelling the frustration of the group. This clears heads, let’s everyone relax, concentrate, and burn down the boss, while reminding everyone when the fire finds their feet.
But when directed at/about someone specific, as in, “Leroy, you’re about to be frakking famous because you’re frakking stupid on a frakking level of exponential frakking idiocy there’s no measure for in the known universe.” is indeed, toxic.
So yes, “toxic” always means bad.
Because in English, words have specific definitions which random easily triggered narcissistic sensitive snowflakes can’t just decide they mean something different in order to make themselves feel smart, better or less guilty, depending on the situation.
Definitions of Toxic:
adjective
- poisonous.
- very harmful or unpleasant in a pervasive or insidious way.
noun
- poisonous substances.
Hope this helps, and don’t let strangers on the internet get to you. People who lash out are likely dealing with some personal demons/abusive relationships/bosses, etc., and it’s their own frustrations finding the wrong exit ramp and undeserving target.
I know it’s hard, but if you take the calm high road, attempt to diffuse (with comedy if possible), it will make everyone feel better, and may even make Lasher realize they lashed undeservedly and apologize/treat people better in future.
Basically, showing kindness to people who rarely receive it, can change people for the better.
Aloha, and Good Hunting.