I’m unsure if its different state to state. Country to country. But I gotta talk with a shrink first. The whole “yup they got dysphoria” thing.
Wish I could just skip that step but oh well.
Working out at a gym doesn’t really do what you think regarding trans men. Yes it helps if you wish to look more physically fit. Working out isn’t going to help because my issue is my voice. Or the inability to grow facial hair. The rest I can deal with with chest binders. And I have no desire for bottom surgery.
Oh sorry, I was referring to cis body builder men getting test seemingly easily. Since their body was hard capped to only get so much muscle, they would increase their test to raise their hard cap, so to speak. I think the downside was their body stops producing its own supply so they effectively screwed their health up for it though…
I hope you get what you need, then you can join us in the fuzzy face gang <3
And yeah, someday I’d just wanna get that look. Its a bit funny because transmen basically go thru a shotgun blast version of male puberty. Since its done in a shorter amount of time.
I can’t grow a beard worth a damn, myself. I used to wish I could grow one, but I’d be too lazy to take care of it properly and I’m a messy eater, so maybe that’s for the best for me…
You got any ideas in mind for how you’d style yours?
I hope you are able to some day be able to look in the mirror and say—in a voice that truly your own—“There I am. That’s me.” You deserve to be yourself; everyone who has to suffer through the days in the wrong body deserves to be able to get the help they need to get to their true-selves on the outside too. I hope you are able to get to that point sooner rather than later, Rosen.
I wasn’t that big on dancing at first, but my whole perspective on it changed on a dime when I saw the Rite of Spring.
I had to write up an analysis of it for music appreciation once and I remember it being heavily criticized for its clunky / heavy handed choreography. But that’s exactly the type of thing that finally clicked for me and drew me in, how dance is such a vast medium that doesn’t mean just one thing, and it literally told a story and I thought that was so cool and beautiful
And yeah it’s incredibly physical. And I’m not even a dancer, though some days I really wish I had the legs for it. (permanent nerve damage means im constantly tripping over my own feet lol)
but in music I’m not moving around that much but it still feels physically exhausting, gotta have the right posture, gotta move around a little bit to get the blood flowing thru your finger tips and stuff
Oh. I didn’t know you had ocd. If I ever say anything that possibly triggers it, lemme know. I know the triggers are different for each person along with the “rituals” done to soothe it. ( a past friend i had referred to it as a ritual, hence the quotes. Because I do not know the official word doctors use for it )
I have had several lucid dreams. Those are freaky because you know you are dreaming, and you are in a dream. Back story: I had just got seriously hurt at work when I was on a deck of a customer with my supervisor because I couldn’t’ access their tank to fill. I worked for a propane delivery company, and I reported the tank, the customer disagreed and when I showed my supervisor that the customer built a new tank I would have to walk under the deck and as I got closer, I would have to crawl on my hands and knees to get to the tank. The back yard had a big slope away from the home.
Anyway, he met me at the house, and I showed him what I would have to do, and he agreed. So, we both went on the porch and talked to the customer. After he spoke to them, he told me I could continue, and he would work it out. As I walked away the deck fell away from the house. My supervisor was able to jump in, but I collapsed with the deck. I severely broke my wrist.
I was hospitalized because of how severe the injury was and the initial surgery I had. That night I had a dream that I went back to work, which I knew was impossible because I was in the hospital, and I kept telling everyone in my dream that I had to be dreaming because I was in the hospital. I knew I was in a dream. It’s freaky!
Then, there was the first time I had sleep paralysis. Rita explains it correct. It feels like you are being held down by something you can’t see. I couldn’t talk though. I couldn’t more anything and when I looked up it was as if something was messing with my vision and the whole time. I literally thought I was being taken over by a demon or something. This is long before I found my faith.
At some point I stopped fighting and fell asleep and woke up “normal”. I seriously felt that I was attacked and that feeling stayed with me all day. It’s only happened one other time and even though I know about sleep paralysis, it’s hard to believe that that was the thing affecting me like that.
