See, you say stuff like this, but you inadvertently helped contribute to the moderator decision to ban me from SLP.
The moderators who wanted to permanently ban me from the project were also moderators of the MG Wiki. Now, let’s refresh our memories on what happened there, eh? See, as I recall, YOU banned me from the MG Wiki for joking about fixing a typo on my page, and then joined the cadre of the wiki moderators who all wanted to ban me from the wiki because I joked about said ban on my profile. So, two months after the fact, those same moderators are out for blood against me, because Maxen also had them be mods for SLP, and took the excuse they could to ban me from the project as well. I know this because Maxen himself told me this was the case.
A snowball turned into an avalanche, because you banned me for fixing a typo. If it sounds ridiculous, it’s because it is.
So, Zaria, are you having a sudden change of heart where it concerns your fellow moderators? As it was pointed out, you’re neck deep with the same people that so many people in this thread are airing grievances about, so it’s incredibly weird to see you say that we’re all justified since it’s implying that you disagree with your friends. Really boggin’ my noggin’ here, y’know?
This’d be quite a bit to unpack here on the forums and usually that just ends in threads getting locked/posts getting pruned. Feel free to add me on Discord - glad to talk about it there and you can snapshot it to have for open record if you want to make sure people can still openly see it: Zaria#4012
After that ban from the wiki, Maxen made me try and message every single wiki admin and moderator to try and appeal my ban.
Two moderators didn’t even bother to talk to me even though I sent them DM requests.
YOU WERE ONE OF THEM.
So, I really have zero interest in wanting to talk privately now three years after the fact, especially because the only thing that’s changed is that you’re getting dragged publicly for it.
I am a servant of the Secret Fire, wielder of the flame of Anor. You cannot pass! The dark fire will not avail you, flame of Udûn. Go back to the Shadow! You cannot pass!
If you have zero interest in that, it’s fine. I’ll try to unpack it here concisely.
So, your wiki ban was compounding on poor behavior. Consistently having an attitude with the wiki admins and getting snide about it in your edits when you did so. Your temp ban for having an attitude through your edits was about three days to try and get you to cool down since you were pretty hotheaded, as you admitted in this forum earlier on. It makes it harder to moderate when people are openly aggressive with other creators, and the administrators. Your extended ban was a snowball because you chose to perpetuate that in public spectacle.
I’m not exactly sure why Maxen had you go to each person individually to appeal your ban. I wouldn’t lead you along like that. I didn’t see the point in leading you along and having you prostrate yourself in front of everyone personally so someone could look like the good guy to you.
Three years indeed. Dude, it’s been three years and you’re seriously this bent out of shape over something that happened to you in an RP group? That’s literally one of the silliest examples of “I didn’t win the RP” you said it yourself:
So you were a jerk and got booted from [x] server RP project, get over it and move on. Surely the SLP can’t encompass or highlight this much of your life that you’d hold a spectral grudge over it this long. Three years, that’s just mentally unhealthy dude and I’m pretty sure you’re the one that had the mental health breakdown over this on your tumblr too not that long ago when you shut it down. You need to move on and attacking Zaria for something that happened three years ago on a forum and “publicly dragging” them isn’t going to help you here.
And as I explained VERY THOROUGHLY to both Berenal and Maxen, I received zero warnings or talking to’s from the moderators over the issue. In your three day ban, you didn’t explain what it was for and simply said ‘your wish is our command’, which is pretty non-explanatory, so I had zero idea that it was indeed my behavior that was wrong - especially since Maxen told me that the three day ban was a joke itself. I wouldn’t have been so aggressive if you guys had just talked to me privately about it before making the entire thing public yourselves.
You know, you’re right. It seems awfully petty of me to be perpetuating something that happened so long ago, right? I mean, why hold onto something for so long? Why keep the grudge?
I’ll tell you and everyone else exactly why.
Ever since those bans from the wiki and the SLP, I had my friends harassed for even being involved with me, and some eventually gave in rather than be shamed. I had GMs of guilds I was in harassed and told to remove me for the sake of preserving their ‘status’ on the server, and some of them caved. That Tumblr you mentioned? Yeah, I got consistent harassment and people telling me to kill myself in relation to the SLP drama, so that’s why I had that ‘mental breakdown’ and deleted it. I’ve consistently had to deal with people harassing me over any online space involving this sphere, and it only started after the SLP ban.
Yeah, I was a jerk. I deserved a punishment for it.
Sometimes it’s better to let something off that’s been eating you alive for days, if not months or years. In this way, airing out grievances in a public manner may be considered juvenile or grudging, but it also helps catharsis and hopefully Bradytwo may be able to move past it with dialogue between.
So do you have proof of this? Because that’s a pretty substantiated claim. I mean, I could see it given it’s MG for sure and I’ve been around long enough to know how the “win the RP” politics work on the server; even still though, that’s pretty insane. I mean, how do you even know it was them in the first place?
He handled it poorly, as he’s handled everyone afflicted by the SLP’s faults poorly. I don’t think he secretly condoned it, but I also don’t think he did much to try and actively prevent it.
Well, Brady, did he even know it was going to happen in the first place? I mean, did your attackers privately DM Maxen beforehand of all this and say to him, “We’re going to attack Brady” because if he had no idea anyone was going to do that, there was nothing he could have done to prevent it.
Also, who were the people that harassed you? Did they use alts to do it? If so, how do you know it was them? I can’t imagine people using their mains to do this, but then again, people are pretty ridiculous sometimes.
Considering this harassment has been going on for years and clearly has only happened every time I made a public criticism of the SLP, the MG Wiki, or Maxen himself, it’s not exactly hard to figure out where all the harassment is coming from. It’s usually peaceful, save for when someone decides to harass my friend’s DMs or send an anonymous message to me that I should kill myself over tumblr, or when the SLP does something like host an insensitive event that I speak out against. My biggest clue of course was indeed when Maxen messaged me to tell me that he didn’t condone it after another fresh wave of attacks, meaning he knew that they were all in response from projects that he manages.