I feel so much regret right now because of a video game

Community General Discussion
1

I’ve gotten so attached to this game over the years and I just can’t get over how emotionally upset I can get over it being like this…

I’m giving up on my +15 in time goal. I just can’t do this anymore. It feels so awful to feel so much anger and hopelessness and disgust and frustration.

It’s the frustration. It gets so intense it makes me feel phsyically ill and I’m just sitting in my chair holding my face digging my fingers into my skin so hard it starts to hurt and I realize I’m sitting in my chair being an emotional wreck… over a damn video game.

I got so into Legion. I have grown more as a player in the last 12 months alone than I have in the other 12 years I have been playing WoW combined despite the near constant disappointments that have been playing my BfA experience.

Season 3 of BfA, as an Alliance player, on a roleplaying server, has got to be the absolutely lowest point I have ever seen this game hit.

I made goals, I tried to stay positive, I spent weeks working on a new main, my guardian druid, I have been trying so hard for so long to make this work and tonight was the worst I have ever felt playing WoW.

I put in WORK on this +15 goal for that purple bear skin.

I don’t have a guild, I don’t play with friends(last friend I had in this game went afk and never logged back on after doing 1 world quest in Nazjatar that’s how bad 8.2 was), I don’t spend money on race changes or boosts or any shortcuts, I had to get everything I have by myself.

I got geared up doing +10s and +11s in mythic+ fast. So fast that I literally took a break from mythic+ because I had stagnated so quickly on my druid once I hit ilvl 440 that I basically just waited a whole month for the rest of the player base catch up to me.

They have caught up to me and started surpassing my ilvl as I am now seeing a lot more people at ilvl 445 or higher now. Especially as more and more guilds start doing mythic bosses in EP.

Again, I can’t do mythic bosses until cross-realm unless I join one of the few guilds on Moon Guard that actively raids. But I had a goal and I worked on it and that goal seemed a lot more reasonable when I made it back then than it does now.

I finally heard it was a push week on wowhead and logged on to get a keystone. I tanked someones 14 WM and turned it into a 16 KR.

Season 3 is so absurd, a +14 Waycrest Manor can see you typically get a +1 or +2 to your keystone with like 0-7 deaths for the group during the run.

We had 44 deaths in the +16 Kings’ Rest. That is the difference between that +14 key and that +16 key for another dungeon. 7 deaths to 44.

The difference in keystone level is only 2 between these dungeons but the Kings Rest was literally 6 times harder for us and it literally felt 6 times harder because that’s how ridiculous the scaling is now.

None of this was new to me so I just gritted my teeth and worked on my +13 key and turned that into a +15 Shrine.

The 2nd boss of that 15 Shrine OBLITERATED my key. Wipe after wipe after wipe after wipe. It’s not even a Tyrannical week and this +15 boss just completely destroyed us. Somehow we got through it and finished the dungeon and I push the key up ONE more time to 15…

AND ITS TOL DAGOR. OF COURSE.

But still, I convince myself to stay positive and just keep trying, so I not only make a group, I make the best mythic+ group I have ever made in BfA.

3 of the 5 of us were in a guild, every dps is very well geared, everyone but me has experience in mythic EP, we are all very well geared, very experienced palyers, we have someone in the group who knows all the ins and outs of high level tol dagor key runs, we are all in discord, it does NOT get more legit than this.

Everything is going ok, not exactly perfect but nobody has made any real mistakes throughout the dungeon until we get to that one hall where before you go to the ramparts and the 2nd last boss, you know that hall with the awful emissary in it by the sharpshooter and the officer where you are supposed to unlock the gate and shroud to go to ramparts?

Ya the gate was unlocked but the rogue forgot to instantly stealth and they were standing too close to the emissary, because of COURSE they would put an emissary at the skip point, and I ask them on discord whats going on and if i should try and pull to save the rogue and we should just kill them and… its just a wipe.

Healer runs back up and dies, one of the dps says the key is scuffed and they are leaving, I ask everyone to please at least just stay so I can get rid of the tol dagor key and push it back up to 15 for another chance at my transmog since this is the push week (literally this is the week to push a 15, there are no other affixes in the schedule that are anywhere near as easy as this weeks so if you arent getting a 15 in time this week, you aren’t getting a 15 in time this season). Nope.

That’s it. One single mistake and the entire key is ruined. There no salvaging this I would have to drop it to an 11 or 12 and start all over again, and even then there is a very very real chance that my group doesnt succeed in doing the 11 or 12 in time and I just waste even more time in Tol Dagor. There is no way in hell I am going to be able to find a group competent enough to finish a 14 TD in time now. It’s done. That’s it. Just one f***ing mistake on one trash skip and the push week window is gone, and thats it. It’s just gone. The window is closed.

Because that’s how absurd season 3 is. In patch 7.2, mythic+ would scale up 8% increased health and damage per level. They increased it to 10% in 7.2.5. And the thing aobut mythic+, is there will always be a record holder, it’s an infinitely scaling system so people can constantly compete for the highest key and the fastest time on that key. But season 3? One mistake and its over. You make one tiny little mistake, you miss one little mechanic, you clip the edge of one aoe swirl on the ground, whatever it is, you are dead, and thats it. Keys dead thats it everyones gone.

Want to just grit your teeth and try to persevere? Pick yourself back up and try again? GOTTA WAIT TIL TUESDAY :wink: SORRY CANT DELETE YOUR KEY ITS NOT ALLOWED ANYMORE :slight_smile:

This happened 2 hours ago now and I can still phsyically feel the stress on my body. It’s a queasy disgusting awful feeling. I’m still just sitting in that dungeon, I keep alt tabbing back in the game but I cant do anything I just get so pissed off. I can’t close the game I can’t play the game I am just sittting here f***ing livid at how frustrating and pointless all this has been.

This was my goal, one of the last reasons I had left to care about this game, something to motivate me and get me to keep playing. What the hell was the point of any of it? Who actually looked at season 3 and said “yeah, this is super fun, the new scaling is perfect players are going to love this!”

Who actually plays WoW at blizzard anymore? Did anyone even play patch 8.2 in Nazjatar before they dumped that steamy pile on the PTR? Not just in a little bubble surrounded by your friends and family or guildies, I mean just go in there by yourself and play the game and get a feel for it. Does anyone ever actually do that anymore at Blizzard? Cause it sure as hell doesn’t look like it.

Does anyone even ask, “Is this fun?” anymore? Because I don’t understand how we could end up with season 3 of BfA if anyone had ever actually done that at any point in the development process of BfA and this f***ing mess of a mythic+ season.

Just feels like rock bottom now. Just feels empty.

27 Likes
2

You need to take a break from the game, plain and simple. Maybe you’ll return, maybe you won’t, but from reading this it’s clear you don’t enjoy it anymore.

36 Likes
3

Time for a break my friend.

8 Likes
4

Take a break, come to classic and relax!

8 Likes
5

You need to seriously find a mental health specialist if a game is getting to you in this way.

13 Likes
6

It is okay to obsess over something like a game, but only in regard to the right parts. Obsess about the characters, about the world, about the story, and about the joy it bring you during the good moments. Never obsess about your performance because that is where the fun stops.

If you ever find a hobby frustrating, not just WoW, it is time to step away and just detox. If you ever get to a point where you are feeling mental, and especially physical drawbacks or stress because of a game, you need to re-assess what the game means to you because that is unhealthy, friend.

I can definitely understand the drive to get that achievement you have been chasing and working toward, but in the end it is pixels that will never be worth the risk of your healthy or mental wellness.

I hope you can find a balance but you will have to learn that some things will come and some things will not. Your progress is something to be proud of so do not let the things you haven’t done yet spoil the entire experience for you.

11 Likes
7

Nah man don’t let it get to you, man.

During MoP I did mythic raiding pretty hardcore. When WoD dropped I was so burned out I basically skipped the whole xpac because I just didn’t want to deal with all the garbage that goes on with trying to get high level things done.

And it was for my benefit as a whole I stopped worrying about ever getting back on the competitive rail again. Now I enjoy the game a lot more(even though I consider BfA a dud) because of that decision.

I generally wont do anything higher than heroic but I be happy never going beyond normal.

All the great gear you have are just tokens and they’ll fade in the next patch. But you have the skill of a good player and that’s will last forever.

3 Likes
8

Okay. I read through the whole thing.

Here’s the deal. I’m gonna be straight. First off: not finding a guild or friends to play with is a quick way to hate yourself on this game. The pug world works for some, and doesn’t work for others. You are experiencing the bad half of it.

However, it’s also worth remembering that people are going through exactly what you’re going through. Back in Legion, I went through the same thing, where you’d try for a 15, get so close, and someone would screw it up. It happens. There’s nothing you can do other than get back up and try again.

If you are this angry, however, to the point where you are gripping your face and losing it in your chair because of how this game works, then you should turn off your computer, take a break and walk away. BFA is bad. We all know it is. But if this is what it’s doing to you, then stop. Breathe. Walk away. Come back when you’re calmer.

This won’t be the last week of the expansion, and KSM isn’t gonna go anywhere. It’s become an esport. If you don’t get it now, you’ll get it another week. Who cares what season it’s in? As long as you get it eventually, that’s all that matters. Chill and breathe.

I’m not being antagonistic, or patronizing you either. Listen to some music, breathe, and calm down. You’re literally losing it over a video game and people being bad in it. It’s gonna happen everywhere. Find a guild. Find friends. Find like minded people who aren’t gonna bail on you because someone was a schmuck in your key. That is the most important part of this problem is finding better people to network yourself with.

12 Likes
9

Brother,

Please consider finding a second hobby which is physically taxing. After 15 years of WoW, I decided it was time to branch out and also do something physical. I joined a Kung Fu academy, and found there a very wonderful second family. From there, I’ve also started going to the gym about 5-6 times a week and ALL of my anxiety is gone.

I am happy. I care so much less about these things in WoW that at one point seemed so emotionally taxing.

I urge you to go out and do something physical as part of a group so that you can build a real-life community of people who all like the same thing you do. It doesn’t have to be self-defense/Kung Fu; it can be anything physically active.

Try it out! You’re going to love the new friends you make, and they will open other pathways for you.

5 Likes
10

Hey Clack, just wanted to let you know that you’ve done really well to have progressed so far. It’s not easy getting up to 440. I don’t see myself bothering to even try. It’s very impressive.

As everyone’s said it’s definitely time to put away the game and enjoy something else.

4 Likes
11

I mean… to be fair… the current WoW team did just about everything humanly possible to drive the current demographic out of the game while trying to shift to some fantastical, far off magical casual subset of gamers that would let them do whatever they wanted with absolutely no standards or expectations whatsoever.

They have been living in a dream world and because of that, everyone in the real world who just wants to be able to log on and play WoW can’t do that.

There’s a level of responsbility that comes with being a developer, especially one that works for a high profile company on a game that a lot of people have come to depend on in one way or another.

I think the current team has shirked that responsibility and, no amount of sockpuppets telling the average WoW player to “find another game” or that this game “just isn’t for you” is going to solve it.

They are just delaying the inevitable.

The reality is so plain and simple… just a handful of goons who refuse to do their jobs.

It’s nothing but that.

Just do your job and everything solves itself.

They won’t do their jobs and they won’t get out of the way to let someone else do them, so we get to see a game dragged down by Gatekeeper Syndrome until it’s completely dead and the people who used it for career advancement move on like the aliens from Independence Day.

Good times! :clown_face:

1 Like
12

Wow.
There’s supposedly an enhancement coming to guild finder. If that happens get yourself into a guild with like minded individuals. Step 1
Step 2. Get some lifting in or some kind of physical release. Running. Mountain Biking. Dont do normal cycling in those lycra tights that slow me down in traffic cause those guys need to die, but get out there.

Or play classic and ease up.

I appreciate you making goals and working towards them but you’re fighting gravity.

1 Like
13

I don’t know if you need to actually quit the game, OP, but it seems obvious you’re aware that your feelings have gotten out of hand. I do understand how frustrating it can be to set a goal that you miss by just a hair, especially when it feels like nothing you do ever works out.

I hope that making this thread and expressing your frustration has helped relieve it at least a little bit. You should certainly take pride in what you’ve accomplished thus far. Maybe you can’t get that transmog, and that certainly is frustrating, but don’t let that failure poison the rest of what you’ve done.

Take a well-earned break if you think you need to. But don’t forget to tell yourself, “Well, heck, I’ve still done more than the vast majority of WoW players.” Because it’s true.

14

Are you just after the purple bear balance of power appearance?
I was under the impression that the requirement for that was only to complete a +15, whether or not you did so within the time limit.

15

Must be done in time. That was a big thing back in Legion where people criticized Blizzard for being unclear, but yes, it must be done in time.

16

@OP
I don’t necessarily agree with the common sentiment here that what you need is a break. I honestly think you’re having an appropriate reaction to a system that continues to shift its focus away from players having fun, and towards other metrics.

It sounds like you know what you’re doing and as a tank you’re doubly sought after. I think the missing ingredient is the lack of a regular group. I would try to find and join a laid back m+ community/guild. They’re far more likely to be understanding when things go sideways and also work toward your goal of timing a 15.

I’m afraid I don’t have a maxed out alliance character to help you, but I’m working on it. I’m sure there are many others who don’t rage at every little thing and would be willing to help you out.

3 Likes
17

I can understand the frustration, I have been in quite a few dungeons where one mistake was made and the key was toast. When that happens log off and do something else, don’t torture yourself over this game.

3 Likes
18

Oh man, that is the first I’ve heard of that; so much for those looks on my todo list.
Rough.
Wishing op the best of luck! After a break for sanity’s sake.

19

Much like I’d advise the OP, I’ll tell you the same thing. KSM isn’t gonna go anywhere. You can achieve it at any point. Some weeks are easier than others. All I would suggest is that you find a group of like minded people to go forth and try to achieve it with.

The thing the OP also needs to remember is that he can do 14’s and 2 chest them without an issue. He can easily get KSM done. He just needs to find regular people he can play with and develop synergy.

3 Likes
20

really sorry to hear that, it sounds like you’ve put a lot of work into it and are close to getting it. Maybe step back, take a couple weeks and try again?

I’d offer to help, but I’m also a tank so that won’t do much good, and the only dps I run m+ on isn’t running 15’s. :slight_smile:

I guess the best advice I can give you is to build out your friends list so you can reinvite people you know are quality players and not prone to drama or rage quits if things don’t go well.

I wouldn’t worry too much about the “push week” concept. Yes, this was an easy week, but that doesn’t mean you are doomed to never get your achieve since it didn’t happen this week.

you can do it!

1 Like