I am heartbroken and divided

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I love this game, but when does a sanctuary become abuse and a prison? A bit dramatic, I am almost at a wits end.

I just can’t do it anymore. The same raid every week, over and over, the same tasks over and over, paying my hard working money for chance odds, literal 0.1 chance rolls. What is the point? Why have I paid and played this title from 2009 to now, and never once seen ashes of alar, invincible, the head, so many runs on so many characters, so many months, so much money. Between the fruitless effort and the broken will, I can’t.

Then a guildmate got Ashes in 16 tries today. I just cracked. My brain just hurt. My right eye felt swollen, I felt my heartbeat in my neck. It was then I knew I was my own worst enemy. I can’t keep paying for lies. I can’t keep aiming for unobtainable loot. It is unobtainable. I refuse otherwise. RNG is fine, odds arent meant to be in my favor, but after my guildmate got his rare mount, This whole game just zoomed out on me. My perspective is negative and this hurts me. 2 hours ago I loved this game. Played and was so excited for new content just like the rest of us, But the time lost, money spent, this is gross abuse and destructive, I hate it took me so long to break these chains, but for the first time in my life, I don’t want to log in tomorrow.

I don’t care anymore about a dumb horse. I can’t earn it, Ill never earn it and it might be best to stop paying into this idea that it will come in patience. It wont. I am a fool and a moron, and I am disgusted I threw away so much time and life and income into this piece of crap luxury expense waste. Thank you Blizzard for the impossible drop rates, I am glad I could farm so much except things of value or rarity. Never again.

Thank you for anyone who cared to read. Feel free to do as all internet folk do, dissect, insult and belittle me. I wont read the replies.

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Maybe a break will be good for you.
I hope you feel better.

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Thanks for the warning. I’ll just leave this here anyway…

:gift:

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Gold. Can I haz it?

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Go see your doctor. I’m not even kidding.

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Zooming out on the bigger picture and self reflection on the why’s is important in every person’s life.

I’ve been doing that recently but for different reasons like why some systems and game designs are intentionally obnoxious and are there just to aggravate the player.

Is this really worth it at the end of the day? We all play for different reasons, I know.

I appreciate the post and can sympathize with the anguish to be honest. Sometimes all we want is the simplest things in the game, but they’re the hardest to obtain.

I wish you all the best and I hope you find something more valuable and worthy of your time.

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Completely random question but are you killing al’ar or that kael’thas guy in the back?

My first few runs I was killing only al’ar thinking that would drop the mount (itself), oopsy poopsy

The drop rate for invincible is super low but al’ar shouldn’t be that low, it’s like 2% though so I guess it’s all relative.

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I understand how you feel and it sucks.

RNG sucks. I created 25 plate wearing guys to farm the Tusks of Mannaroth and never saw them, but have 11 copies of the scorpion mount.

Finally got them during remix. Maybe that will be a thing if they ever remix other expansions and you can get the mounts you are after.

That being said, I got the head copter and the fire bird on my first go, didn’t even know about the ashes before then. Invincible on my 5th run and wasn’t there for him, was only doing heroic for the achievement.

I would take a break for a bit and clear your head.

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I started enjoying this game much more once I stopped playing the “real game” and just did RP and trolling and transmog collecting.

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On the off chance you do come back here:

Would you prefer the mounts just be outright unobtainable? Legitimate question. Because with the exception of Ashes, raid mounts with 1% droprates are basically just Blizzard’s way of technically keeping stuff in the game but rewarding those who participated in the content while it was current. The 1% rate comes after the expansion is over. Same for modern Mythic Raid mounts.

Is it better to have them enter “very rare” status after the content becomes trivial, or would it be better to just remove it entirely so people who care about filling out their collections don’t feel like they have to do these kinds of endless grinds?

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Collectionists are the Karens of Wow. So dramatic and loud.

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The same reality hit me when Blizzard removed the Ulduar meta achievement/points that I worked hard on back in the day. It felt like they 100% completely wasted my time…which they did.

I stopped chasing a lot of things in this game since then. I enjoy questing and doing odd things here and there…that is it.

You didn’t waste time Gankuskhan! You still have good memories, I’m sure, and some friends made along the way. Now to find a new hobby! That is exciting. :smiley: Mine is the violin and gardening.

:dracthyr_cry_animated:

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In case you do read comments, please seek help. I don’t mean this in a harsh way, but you have an extremely unhealthy relationship with this game, and you’d be better off deleting your account to prevent relapsing and to focus on other things.

They’re just pixels, and if those pixels are upsetting you this much emotionally, it’s not good for your mental health.
The fact that Blizzard has very low drop rates and has built tons of FOMO into the game has its reasons, and unfortunately, these cheap tactics tend to strongly affect vulnerable people like you. It seems to me that this game isn’t right for you if you’re only realizing this now.

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Abuse? Bruh…. Let’s not throw out buzzwords just because you didn’t get a mount.

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Doc, it hurts when I do this.
Stop doing that.

I’ve played a lot of World of Tanks. A month ago, I realized I was just going through the motions without joy. So, I stopped playing it.

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My friend, I think that you really need a break, and that’s okay.

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RNG is RNG. I got my Rivendare’s Deathcharger back in late BC after 152 runs.

Took me 6 runs to get Glacial Tidestorm.

It do be like that.

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I won’t make sense then.

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Self care time, OP. Take a break. Don’t even think about the game. Don’t look at the forums or wowhead. It’s a couple of weeks until expansion launch. That’ll give you some distance so you can better judge whether you actually want to play anymore or not. Because sometimes you do just keep doing things out of habit and it can quickly become unhealthy.

Best of luck. I hope you figure it out.

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beats being constipated and multiplied.