“Be at Peace. He is now one of your Guardian Angels. Forever watching over you, as you watched over him. No more pain for him. No more sorrow for him. He would want you to remember the good times.”
/healing understanding hug
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No. Just stop right there, dude. Seriously. No “what ifs”.
You made exactly the correct and, yes, most difficult decision. To do otherwise would’ve been an absolute betrayal of all the trust and love he gave you over the years. I believe that with all my heart when it comes to people and animals who rely on us as caregivers.
Mac knows you love him and always will. Mac also knows you did exactly the correct thing.
Yes, you hurt. And no, the hurt will never go away. BUT (and this is extremely important so listen up and listen good) the hurt will become manageable. And with time, the hurt will become understanding and acceptance.
And when that happens, it will be as an epiphany.
I went through something similar after my suicide attempt and after my mother died. Yes, sometimes grief hits me like a baseball bat on the back of my head, but it’s something that happens less and less frequently. And so it will happen to you.
Do NOT blame or hate yourself. Mac surely doesn’t. He is at peace, across the rainbow bridge, with all the other animals that have gone before. He is HEALED now.
You need not ask forgiveness as there is no fault to forgive. I can assure you Mac’s love for you is unconditional as is Cotton’s.
Be at peace, my friend. Mac is in a place of pure peace and love and hopes that you will find a measure of the same yourself.
Edit: And Cyndi’s right. Mac is now watching over you just as you watched over him. He always will.
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And let me hip you to another nugget of truth. You may not wish to hear it now and that’s totally understandable but I only ask you keep it stashed somewhere in the back of your noggin as this happens to every pet owner:
There will come a time, maybe at a pet store when you’re getting something for Cotton or an animal shelter where maybe you’re volunteering.
You will hear a tiny, timid meow or a cautiously enthusiastic bark. You will find the source. And that animal will look you in the eyes straight on and you will know Mac is telling you that this little animal is in desperate need of all love only you can provide it.
This is, I honestly believe, the true cycle of love. Our pets who’ve crossed that rainbow bridge never fail to guide us to other animals who are in need of love and care just as much as we are. And it ALWAYS happens at just the right time.
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“This is so true.”
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I think one of the hardest things about being a cat mommy or daddy. Or the mommy or daddy to any animal. Is there will usually always come a day where we have to make one of the hardest decisions of our lives for them. Because they cannot make it for themselves. When we do it hurts, it hurts like hell. It is like a piece of your heart has been ripped out. You second guess and question your decision. Still we have to make that decision because they are depending on us.
gives Wiccan a bunny hug. You ask that Mac forgive you. I don’t think he has anything to forgive you for. From what I know you made the right choice, Mac knows that as well and he is now with a plethora of felines waiting for their people to come and join them. He is well and happy, and one day in the distant future he will run up to meet you once more and jump up on your lap for loves, and pets.
Until then I will keep you and Cotton in my thoughts and prayers. I will ask Oliver, Apollo, Jetta, Mina, Gary, Frankie, Lucky, Aurora, Pj, Gizmo, and all my other Kitty angels to make Mac feel welcome while he waits.
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Nothing is ever lost. The love and joy you and Mackie shared have changed and shaped you and, for the rest of your life, you will, in turn, change others for the better because of that bond. Mackie is a part of who you are and because of this he lives with you and through you.
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Sending you a hug…
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this expansion is very fun it’s like the best of every other mmo out there the covenant system is like skyforge and torghast in like greater rifts in diablo it’s like having throws games integrated in wow and it’s awesome
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You were in my thoughts this day Mr Wiccan, fwiw I’m pleased you were not alone.
Be gentle with yourself these days. Allow yourself time to grieve and heal.
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I hope Mackie is happy and in a better place somehow. I cried when I watched my dog Shadow go to sleep forever when I had to put him down.
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Thank you, your support is a true comfort to me.
I would also like to extend my condolences to you for your late Shadow. I am absolutely positive that he was deeply loved and you were his best friend.
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It is the cycle of life, you made the right decision and you are a very good pet owner. Some people would put their pets through misery and pain, because they didn’t want to accept their pet time has come. Like Elmerbludd said, there will another who would need your love and care.
When I lived in Texas most of my cats came from outside, they were abandoned and neglected they were really skinny and sickly looking. They were lucky kitties, because there were coyotes in the area. I found them in time to save them, somehow cats know I’m a cat lover.
Mac will live on in your heart and memory,
I’m guessing Mac and Cotton are your first pets, time will heal your wounds friend.
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i just wanted to say…
all you lounge folk are awesome when someone is in need 
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Good morning lounge po0fs from a mysterious green cloud
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That they are 
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They are the first pets I’ve been directly responsible for, yes. Growing up on the farm the entire family took care of the cats and dogs, plus the odd rabbit. I was often at school, or had moved away, when the family pets had passed away.
Mac and Cotton are my first. It’s the first time I had been with a beloved pet when they passed away. Comforting them in the Veterinarian office, holding their paws. It was so quick, I had no idea how fast the end would be. It took me utterly by surprise. I stayed with Mac for half an hour before I left.
I know I made the right choice. Any other option would have been selfish and a betrayal of his love and trust in me. I am considerably lucky to have such good friends and family that have been with me every step of the way.
Mac taught me so much about being a less selfish person, to appreciate the people in my lives. Too stop and enjoy the small moments, to laugh at unexpected mishaps. That being silly is okay, that I have more love to give than I often think I do. I will always remember the lessons he taught me.
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I might only be speaking for myself Wiccan, but I have a sneaking suspicion others may also feel similarly.
I’m confident in saying everyone in this thread is a good person. There’s no doubt in my mind about that.
But in your pain, you shared Mac with us amd when push came to shove, I experienced that selflessness that Mac taught you.
In a way, by sharing Mac with us, even those who may not have or be able to have animal companions, he has touched us as well and taught us a valuable lesson.
It really struck home this morning as I listened to Leonard Cohen’s Hallelujah. When I first heard the song, I thought it was about how love and loving someone was dangerous. And as I grew older, I thought it reinforced my own agnosticism.
But there is a line, at the very end that goes like this:
“And even though it all went wrong, I’ll stand right here before the Lord of Song with nothin’, nothin, on my toungue but Hallelujah!”
And it hit me: yes, love is hard. Love is complicated. Love can both make and break us. But when we stand before the Lord of Song, we will do so singing Hallelujah because we are, at rhe end of the day, despite the joys and inevitable pain of love, we have experienced love.
And so, I give to both you and Mac a glorious Hallelujah! for allowing me to learn, grow, and be a better person more capable of love than I’ve ever been before.
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I can relate to this.
I had a cat called Ikey/Ikelet for a long time. About 6 and a half years, she got run over. It was literally the only thing I had.
During my marriage when it was all breaking down at the end of last year in particular with all the grievances and things that occurred. I had a lot of issues relating to people, she was all I had. I still have pictures off her if you add me on bnet i’m happy to link them for you, because I understand…I understand what it’s like to have a member of your family that you cling to more than any other, that doesn’t judge or persecute you, that just wants to be with you and love on you.
Those things are important. That was the only thing I had for many many years back in Australia too, it’s actually the one thing that has forced me to move twice. The first time was from Australia to here (US) because among other things(including friend and relative dying within 2 months of each other) my long time companion also got run over by a car, so I was shattered pieces on the ground, worse than anyone in here has ever seen me and I am sure they’ve seen a lot (I try not to say too much…because I’m an introvert)
So I can relate to that also.
They can teach you a great many things, especially on how to react to humans, they have a read of people like i’ve never seen. It’s an interesting thing. She knew everything that went on in my house, even when I was being cheated on, she came closer and wouldn’t let her near me, she actually attacked her at one point because she was (my ex wife) trying to give me a massage and break down a bunch of knots and I was screaming and she attacked her xD It was hilarious.
But yeas, this is very important and I am glad you shared that
My cat over in Australia was so super intelligent she use to run down the hallway and plow head first into the roller door she didnt really understand the meaning of. She figured it was just an illusion humans put up to get in here way so she was determined to run up and down said hallway on the daily, you can see where this is going.
One night I’m sitting at my pc right, in the kitchenette sort of area but not quite, and the roller door was shut, my fathers in the other room. Next thing Bang! she ran full force into the door, I’m like what the…go to check and she looks up at me, paws the door and meows…I miss her
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Listen to this one, it is an amazing version of Hallelujah, that guy with the hat can really hit the high notes.
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