Yeah, I’m not in a good place tonight. Kind of depressed and sad. Everything is getting to be too much for this little Gnome, so I thought I would come in here and goof off for a while.
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Seems to be the trend with a lot of people tonight. Wednesday was not a good day for a lot of people it seems.
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Yeah, I saw the posts. 
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Anyway, I don’t want to bring people more down then they already are so I guess I’ll call it a night. Seemed most everyone left anyway.
Goodnight! 
Have a good night. Might head off too, another day of work awaits.
Just so we are clear. I’m not upset with anyone, and no one did anything wrong. I’m mad at myself because I keep banging my head on the social wall, and I end up hurting the feelings of the people around me without even knowing what I’m doing. I get tired of it. I’m sick of myself trying to socialize when I have no clue how to do it.
This is why I always hide behind being the “entertainment” because whenever I try to socialize in any meaningful way, there is a very high possibility that it turns out badly.
I’m in tears right now. I was also in a bad place tonight and thought since there were a few people in that same state that maybe we can share a moment together if even at a distance (since I know there are still some bad feelings about my falling out months ago), but I went and blew it because I’m a social idiot and I feel like a piece of garbage and no one gives a sh1t anymore and I don’t blame them.
I’m not leaving the forums and I’m not leaving this thread. Because I have a right to be here, but I will just be the entertainment since that’s about all I’m good for anyway.
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“The only thing you did wrong was to delete your post. That upset more than just me. I have told you this before, but you didn’t listen then. So whatever.”
It will never happen again, because I will never socialize again since I always screw up.
“My point is, it was a perfectly good post. I even responded to it. Then you deleted it, so I edited mine to express how I felt. Then you put yours back and made ME look like a mean person. Even reflected that in your next post. You don’t even give your SELF a chance, much less any one ELSE. THAT is where you goof.”
“But you will just take this wrong, like you do any thing ELSE I ever say.”
I removed it because I thought it bothered you and I don’t know what you mean “reflected in your next post” are you saying I was intentionally trying to make you look bad? Because that’s so very not true and more proof of just how bad I am at this socializing thing. Even though I have good intentions, it gets all misunderstood.
I put it back because of Aeve’s posts then tried to clean everything up to make it like it was before.
“You posted a song for me, to cheer me up, and then deleted it after I thanked you for the thought. That is what hurt. You took away the thought, so I took away my thank you.”
I can understand that. I just hope you can understand that I was already not sure about the post in the first place, so I took your reply as you being bothered by it.
“If I am bothered by something I WILL SAY SO. I am not one to mince my words.”
I’ll keep that in mind in the future.
“You say you have known me for a long time, but it is clear you don’t really know ME at all.”
Well, giving how things ended the last time we met, I wasn’t sure if you were trying to not bring out drama in me so you instead were more mincy and less direct given our current situation.
I was wrong.
“You were wrong last time too.”
Anyway, it won’t happen anymore, since I’ll just remain the entertainment and stop the socializing. It always ends with misunderstanding.
“Whatever.”
/vanish