Just that.
I’m exhausted. This year’s worn me down and I feel like I’m barely anything anymore.
Nothing’s got…meaning behind it anymore, for me. I know I have goals, but I don’t feel them. I know I want to go into architecture, or at least the person I was wanted to. She was passionate about it, so I’m trying to be. Even little things, like Shadowlands - there’s no excitement. There’s no hype. It’s coming out soon, there’s going to be an even in a week even - and there’s nothing.
Even with world events, it’s got no emotional bearing for me anymore. It’s just something that’s happening. Either which way it goes there’s still…so much to do.
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Yeah. Nah you’re right - goodness if there weren’t any restrictions it’d just be easy to get this over with. I wouldn’t have to worry about mental health or anything. Nor would anyone else, anymore.
I hope you sooner or later feel better! Im on the same boat and sometimes reflect very deeply and feel negative. In terms of SL i also may sooner or later no longer play due to priorties and life. Im not so hyped as i was in the past expansions i think its just me growing honestly. Lately the past weeks ive just tried to acknowledge the little things that gave me some positivity, its helped so far. Maybe that can help a little? Stay strong
I mean like…I’m trying. I’m doing things that should be mentally healthy. I’m trying to practice mindfulness.
But i’m just doing these things. I’m eating because I’ll starve if I don’t, not because I want to. I write diary entries because it’s supposed to organize my head. They’re there. I try to work out when I’ve got the energy. I do it - and then what.
This is going to sound trite, but I promise its not…do you have a hobby? Woodworking, cooking, knitting etc?
I find that productive hobbies have more staying power than consumptive ones do, but reading also works.
The isolation sucks. Big time. Unfortunately video games arent the escapist dream they once were. Now they are skinner boxes designed to extract dollars in exchanged for randomized endorphin shots.
Do something different. Resort to reality. I promise there is a lot of world left to experience, if only you take the time.
The only good thing that came out of 2020 for me was that my husband really showed how loving and supportive he can be through crises. He’s usually extremely stoic. So this was new for me to see this side of him. Otherwise… 2020 can go suck it.
Hm, well I don’t have a wife/girlfriend so I wouldn’t know, been alone and will die alone. But congratulations on finding someone that can support you.
I mean I’m in college - I’m studying architecture. That was my whole thing. I was so…so bloody excited to get out there. I’d spend nights up focused on my designs because I beleived in them and I was ready to learn.
And now that’s gone.
I’ve tried knitting, learning languages, guitar, wood carving, embroidery…I don’t know. It’s just all flat. It just feels like another chore to do. Which sucks - these were things I had wanted to do for ages.
Although hey, silver lining - I now have a new scarf, and I can speak fluent Spanish and broken Arabic.
That was my whole thing. I was so…so bloody excited to get out there. I’d spend nights up focused on my designs because I beleived in them and I was ready to learn.