Time is gone:
How can we know it flows, when all we see are the remnants of the past. How can time persist when all we know is past or now? We breed to avert time, as that is what we are programmed to do. God is that feeling that there is someone or something looking out for us, hearing us, something that is there. But what else can it be than a left over, of what we felt in the womb of our mothers. As that, god is a the memory of our first human connection, the closest we will ever feel.
As we grow older the spark in us diminishes day by day, we need to stay alive one more day to see what will happen, if something will happen. No matter the cold, no matter the suffering, we stay to fight against our demons looking for some warmth to keep us alive. But the closer we get the more we get burned. Why?
Because the moment we stall we are ash, humans are processes, that is life, process after process after process. If there is no process there is only a thing. So we are slaves, hijacked to keep the machine going without knowing, why, where, who, and without knowing the destination…
Crush, school, love, proud, shame, friends, none:
It is all in your mind, sure maybe you could have had that love of your life, loving, getting red, playing love birds, getting envious stares of your less er humans, getting some pervert fantasies, pushing each other to new highs, BUT YOU DIDNT. Other guys, other women, other bullies got what you wanted or what was put into your mind. Why ? Because they just did, they didnt cared about how, why, where or they just went for it prepared or not. They were ready to fail and didnt let their subconscious dictate their life, feed by parenting ? Feed by better gens ? Feed by better experience? Feed by society?
Probably, but who cares ? At the end they are all ashes like you and if not they arent even the same person anyway. Either way it is all a big fantasy to keep you going a little longer for the entertainment of our fantastic society, we always need some losers that can serve as bad examples and low income cows and some easy views, comments on this and any other website.
Get better, improve yourself, get a job, do this, i need help, maybe you are just a whining nutcase, complaining about the past for what, to who?
Dont you get it ? People want responsible people, they can lean on, people with some decent attributes, and best someone that makes them feel good, happy, that brings the best out of them. How about actually trying to create a system for yourself in which your fails dont hurt to much, in which standing up again is easy. Use your NEGATIVITY to become MR. Positive to annoy the toxic people in this world. You are irritated at night? GO sleep
You are craving for food, sweets, junk food ? Use that hunger to make a big feast and taste your food while cooking, while getting rewarded with a proper meal at the end.
Your a shell of yourself that cant get out of bed? Time to become Jesus while doing the bar minimum suffer to stand up, suffer to walk, suffer to s., suffer to see!!!
It is true, the entertainment wears off, because it is the same thing again and again… Just like your posts, though some new ideas, your crush is getting annoying, do you even spoke with that person one time ? Did you even try to interact with this person? Igloooo here Igloooo there, who the f. careee?
If the Blizzard would have not stopped your posts would have been dared. Your post here to get some attention just like the rest of the commoners here.
Come on Changsta grow up and become more and get geared.
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