There are loads of resources online you can take a look at like videos on YouTube, or free books. Also, reach out to someone you trust and talk about some of the things that are making you feel that way - you might feel silly at first but the burden will lift. Love yourself.
If this game gets on my nerves, I just go play the PvZ shooter games. So relaxed, nothing to be taken seriously. I recommend them to anyone looking for a not-to-be-taken-seriously shooter experience.
I really just want to have fun, but try to find the idiot who tbag or the other… one that think that is funny to write ‘‘ez’’ at the end of the match… worst part is that this kind of toxic ppl tell ‘‘but is just something said to have fun’’