The short and simplified story i’m getting from this is that OP wanted to become a pro OWL player but after a year or so he didnt get close and gave up on gaming in general.
Be honest OP. what made you think you had what it takes to become a pro-player for OWL? Did you have outstanding stats in another game like CS or TF2 or amazing game sense? because so far all i can see is a drive to win but just having that isnt close to enough, considering you are in college you probably had limited time to play so a ton of practice isnt something you’d really get. Did you even set realistic expectations for yourself? you are in gold right now so you were probably high silver/low gold to begin with so how realistic was it for you to expect you’d get into OWL at this time-period when you saw your starting rank?