I need help to remove myself from the community

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I know it’s stupid to ask for this on a game forum. But I have been very unstable in the mental health department lately. It seems that social media and forums trigger me.

There is a lot of shaming when you can’t play the game in a way that seems “totally obvious” to some gamers. And people kind of just comment things like “Lol I can’t believe you couldn’t shoot the reaper.” and there is one user who seems to either be kind of stalking the forums or stalking my profile and when I defend myself this same user follows up basically saying that me defending myself was unneeded and I took everything too personally and I’m the problem and the person who called me a name or shamed me for not being able to do something was in the right and I’m a precious snowflake and I’m everything wrong with the world and blizzard forums.

Maybe I am everything wrong with the world. In fact I believed that I was so wrong that I had no right to even exist.

They keep telling me I’m gonna have a bad time online and that the community is going to attack me and eat me alive.

I have a lot of depression issues. I was just trying to defend myself but it seems like the harder I try the more the community attacks me. Maybe I don’t deserve to exist.

Why does social media make me feel this way? Do I have no right to defend myself online?

I think that user was right. I think I have no place in the overwatch blizzard community. I think I kind of just want to delete all my past posts and delete my blizzard forums account. Is this possible? Can a moderator help me?

Edit: I’d like to add I’m not going to say the username because that’s not my point. Also you wont’ be able to see all of it in the history because the moderators deleted one of my previous threads because of it.

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i have a lot of depression and suffer from OCD that often makes me want to delete every iota of evidence that i ever existed online so that i can “start fresh”
in the past this made me buy some games many times over for the sole purpose of keeping my anxiety in check

there is no panacea to fix everything when you feel like you’ve screwed up or something just gnaws at you even if it shouldnt, but my approach to it lately has been to step away from the things bothering me so much until they slowly begin to weigh less on me

but you gotta think long term as well imho. when youre sayin things like “maybe i dont deserve to exist” you gotta take a step back in general and think about gettin some help, you know? you cant help the way negativity on the game impacts u, but it sounds to me like a big reason for it is because things might be rough IRL. its really easy to convince yourself that the problem is right in front of you and if it’s fixed everything will be better, but like myself maybe you have to look at what you need to address in your life

but if you feel like being online also helps u escape and it’s maybe ur only option rn, then i think maybe u should isolate urself from negativity. maybe stay off the forums for a while, and while ur ingame mute voice and chat. yeah you wont hear callouts, but that sounds like an easy thing to give up in exchange for not exposing yourself to something you know will spike your depression, you know what i mean?

best of luck dude, always remember its never as bad as it seems and it can always get better

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I have a lot of issues with Depression/OCD. The best thing i can advise is seeing a doctor that specializes in medicine. And i don’t mean psychiatrists. Been to psychiatrists since i was little for ADD. Then it was visits for OCD/Depression. Psychiatrists are 0 help. Then when i went to a legit doctor that knows the chemical compounds of medications and how they work, it helped me a lot. Psychiatrists are more: “How do you feel? Ok. Well let’s try this medication and see how it works. Come back next month. This session will be $900. Thanks.”

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Thanks I appreciate your post. But it seems blizzard forums just upset me too much. That’s why I want to delete my account. If it’s gonna be like this. If people are gonna flip out just because I told someone that their response was rude or not appropriate I really don’t have any reason being here on the forums. I had a thread avalanche into people attacking me because I told someone that them calling me a baby, because I asked some people to stop arguing, was uncalled for.

I get so upset I start shaking. Maybe my posts can stay. But I really do need my account deleted. I have no purpose to serve here accept to further injure myself mentally.

Right now I am seeing a doctor but it’s not something that any doctor or therapist can easily fix. I’ve been struggling since I can remember because I’m a survivor of child abuse. I have complex post traumatic stress disorder. I wish simply seeing a doctor and getting on medication would fix my problem.

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well im not sure if you can delete your account as i think its linked to your bnet and it sounds like you still want to play the games. im pretty sure there is a way to block certain websites from being available to you, so maybe you could sign out and do that? if nothing else it will remind you whenever you try to visit why you tried to keep yourself from doing so in the first place, and that may be enough to keep you away

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What is Bnet? I play on PS4. Does that make a difference?

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Everyone has issues, you just gotta learn to overcome them.

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hmm im not sure in that case. i think your account would still be linked, but it seems like your best bet would be to write a ticket in to blizzard’s customer support to try and seek further answers from them
apologies, i wish i could be more helpful but im on PC myself :frowning:

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Thank you. I will try that.

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best of luck dude i hope things work out for the better :slight_smile:

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it’s an internet forum, people flip out about anything

the main thing to keep in mind is that unless you’re actually being a prick it’s just a vocal minority that is attacking you, it’s much more common for someone to reply to call someone else out than support them, it’s just the nature of forums

if it still gets to you, the blizzard forums are not the only place the OW community exists, find a discord or something and try to meet people there that maybe are more keen to whatever you have going on or are more aware about what they’re saying during a discussion

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Never say this ever.

Well wishes from this toxic forumite. :peace_symbol:

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watch jojo bizzare adventures, it’ll help ya.

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Yeah haha. I kind of realize that. That’s sort of why I’m trying to take personal responsibility and just remove myself because I’m not in a healthy enough mental state to handle it.

Soleil,

That really meant a lot to me thank you. If anyone is worried I did call my therapist and I’ve calmed down. I did have a crisis and that’s part of the reason I am asking for help. At this point I’d even be fine getting permabanned from the forums because I think I’d be better off not being able to post.

I don’t know. It’s like this weird addiction. I keep doing it even though it’s hurting me. That’s why I want my account deleted. I’m like an alcoholic who drinks even though they know they’ll get a stomache ache later or say something idiotic and regret it or a shopaholic who keeps using their credit card even though they know they can’t pay the bill. I have issues.

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well if it’s any consolation it’s pretty awesome that you’re able to recognize a problem, consult a professional, and actively seek out a solution
in the past when ive been in similar places i often chose to ignore it instead, all the way up until it really messed me up
youre off to a good start imho :smiley:

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Are you wanting to force yourself to stop playing the game in general? Do you only want to not engage with the forums?

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Sorry, but why do you post this? If you need help get professional help.

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If your on mobile, light your phone on fire. And if your on computer, light your computer on fire.

fixed

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You most certainly do have a right to exist. Don’t listen to anyone who would tell you otherwise.

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All he wanted was a simple life. He would have had it too, if it weren’t for those meddling kids and that girl’s dog.