This is kind of like a Part II to my “Should I Keep Playing If My Mental Health Is Bad?” Post.
I hate this game. Overwatch gives me constant mental breakdowns and I just wanna quit. I find no enjoyment out if anything. So I’m just venting my feelings out.
Quick Play:
If it was only like Comp but with no ranks I wouldn’t mind it. I hate how short it is. The only time you get multiple rounds is when you play on maps like Nepal, Lijand, and Oasis. And unless I wanna get hard focused and more pressured, and name called and told to “KMS” I cannot run Widow. The fact I can’t even pick what game mode I wanna play on is ridiculous. In Call of Duty, Paladins, and other shooters you can choose your preferred game mode. You wanna go around and just get kills you can choose and play Team DeathMatch. Overwatch does not have that simple of a feature.
Game Updates:
In my personal opinion, I feel like every time Blizzard as little as even TOUCHES the game it automatically gets worse. Whenever an adjustment is made the game just gets worse somehow? Back when the Overwatch 2 beta came out for Console players it was fun and enjoyable and I couldn’t wait for it. Playing Overwatch 1 felt IMPOSSIBLE (to me). Overwatch 2 comes out, aside from the terrible launch (which I do not blame Blizzard for), again the game felt fair, more enjoyable and actually playable. Then the game got a few updates and now it feels like HELL trying to even play this game.
Competitive and MatchMaking:
This ties into what I said above but before the game felt playable and a bit easier and now the game just feels like torture, especially in comp. MMR means nothing, so while I’m ranked at “Silver” I could be placed in high-Gold or Plat lobbies. I believe one game improve with enough playing time, but Silver IV games shouldn’t be super hard especially when I haven’t stopped playing the game and I was Silver I at one point. I used to Solo Queue because playing with friends is AWFUL!! Sure you all may be ranked in Silver or Gold, but MMR is out of whack and matches just feel harder for no reason. On top of matches feeling harder half my games are LITERALLY INSTANT LOSSES the second it starts and it should never be that way. This to me was more common ever since Blizzard decided to Decay roles after the season ended. Not fun at all.
No Enjoyment:
One of the biggest takeaways from my time playing this game is that I experience no happiness or joy when playing anymore. Maybe it’s because I’m a Widow main and I’ll always try my best, but again playing her just feels bad. Between always getting hard focused and getting called names, and bullied, and blamed for everything, what I don’t like the most is getting told to KMS because I like playing a character who I enjoy very much. I try my hardest for everything this game, for people to be nice to me, my improvement, everything and all I get is ridiculed and bullied for simply trying my best. People really are super cruel when it comes to this game. It’s not having mental breakdown after mental breakdown, all for this game.
I wanna quit I really do, but there are a few reason I haven’t. Because I love WidowMaker, and also it’s all everybody plays. Nobody cares about what game I find interesting. I have a bad friend group. Nothing I say to them matters. They all claim TK hate Overwatch but continue to play it. It’s driving me mad. My mental health cannot do it anymore. Yes that was but more personal I am sorry.
All in all I wanna give this chance because it has potential to be good again, but it only gets worse. I just want to quit Overwatch, or the game just need to reignite its spark it once had.