I honestly feel exactly the same.
Kind of depressed when I don’t have a good mmo or arpg to play, and I’ve gone off mmo’s completely now.
Latest wow expansion did that for me. People say that they will quit but I actually did. I no longer play mmo’s and was really excited for Shadowlands after Classic got me back into the idea of playing wow.
Issue is the wow playerbase is too toxic and game is geared towards providing the most toxic competitive players with all the best loot.
I just want to play solo now. I like competing at the highest level, but not with a bunch of douchebags who won’t accept new players. I performed excellently, better than others in gearing, raiding and pvp, but was still kept out of the raid group in favour of players that were in the guild before me. Investing tons of time into fail groups is extremely disheartening. Also felt like I got set back after being really ahead at the start of the expansion. It was hard enough for me to get into a mythic raiding guild let alone finding another one and going through the same thing a 2nd or 3rd time. So this was what finally got me to give up on mmo’s until maybe Ashes of Creation. But even then I’m not that hyped tbh, mmos are kinda dead to me. Not really an immersive experience anyway.
Diablo 4 is really important for me that it’s good. I don’t think any type of game can satisfy my itch for a social, online rpg with good end game and itemisation, builds and classes, combat, and most importantly (for myself) a robust, fun, balanced pvp for end game.
I just don’t have fun making powerful characters in online rpgs unless I can use them in pvp, and even arena pvp gets boring. Large map pvp modes where you have random, gank style pvp fights and pvp/pve modes or world pvp are what makes these games SO much fun to grind and build powerful characters in.
Once I’ve beaten the game on the hardest mode, I might make 1 or 2 more classes but I will usually stop playing at this point if the pvp isn’t good or non existent.
I really hope D4 has a really enjoyable online experience and lots of pvp activities. As well as a great solo experience for building characters to use in pvp or group pve.