Wellp guess it’s time I blow the lid off of everything and tell my tale, feel free to read if you want.
Sets up the popcorn stand and the cold drink dispenser
Dammit, Topsail, I shouldn’t have to do this for you all the time …
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Here we go, It all begain early wrath of the lich king for me, I had y’know been a typical pvp scrublord who came onto an RP realm hoping for a break from all the ganking and just vile garbage that comes from being a pvper, now that isn’t to say I dislike pvp, that’s not it. My father had a heart attack caused from stress on my old server from being ganked, now there were many things that lead up to him getting to that point, but the catalyst I suppose you could say, was being trolled on a pvp server by people. Moving on. I moved to Wyrmrest accord under the same name as I always called myself when I was playing, I had a gnome rogue named Bakaro, and a Human paladin called Zalden. I later made a character named Icica, I got into a group of roleplayers, around mid wrath I believe, I could be wrong. And being me I was nervous to tell them anything about myself, I had never been in a situation where I had to explain who I was. I didn’t want to scare them off, because the truth of the matter in my head was the worst thing ever, I guess you can say I lied. I told them I was a year older than I was, I told them I was not the gender I am. I didn’t want to have people tracking me down. So I lied. And quite honestly, I got called out for it. So I got black listed on Icica for being an ERP person, (since I can’t use the WH word.) for well basically sitting in stormwind minding my own business talking to a friend and some random person jumped on my character’s lap and didn’t move, I got framed for it and well I couldn’t defend myself because I had already lied about who I was. Moving on from those events, I deleted Icica, I moved Bakaro, my first character, to horde, making him a troll rogue at first, named Buliki, I loved Buliki, for many reasons and some of you may have met him, he’s a giant silly character, meant for laughs, he gives out plushie pigs. He was never. Meant to be taken seriously. However, when you lie on the internet and try to just let it die down by moving on, people find you. So I had to rename/race change my rogue, to this one. I am skipping a lot of details, and I apologize I do not want to throw anyone under the bus, I do not want to give out names, or throw garbage someone else’s way. My actions were my own. I screwed up by trusting the wrong people. Because of that, I can no longer engage in any random RP due to fear of being judged or being lead down the same path as I was before. I do not want people to feel sorry for me. I just wanted to say the truth. And here it is. I’m a twenty seven year old man now. I have just lost my father. I suffer from bipolar disorder, ADHD, Manic depression and some form of autism. I’m a broken man who can’t keep out of his own head, I try my best to put my best foot forward, but I some how always come across as a drama mongering moron. For that. To anyone I ever interacted with, I am deeply sorry for being a d-bag. I’m sorry, if I offended anyone for this, I’m sorry for posting this on the forums. I’m on antidepression pills again, and I felt the need to clear the air so I could move forward. Thank you for reading.
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press the Enter button sometimes
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I’m not sure if you’d remember me or not, but we used to play together a lot. Bakaro used to date my old Draenei priest (can vouch that we never erped). I always kind of assumed you were lying about a few things, but figured you probably had some heavy life stuff going on outside the game and didn’t care. I also disappeared after realizing I had a pretty toxic friend group, but had better success than you in starting over. Anyway, I always wondered what happened to you. I hope things will get better for you. If you ever want to talk about stuff or hang out, feel free to drop me some mail or something (I am on MG with this particular character, but have others on WrA).
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I know what its like to lie to people about your personal life details, though I had the circumstances where I could’ve passed it off as being a child basically, if I had any need to. I did a lot of running away from toxic groups, too, and I had a lot of baggage I carried with me for years afterwards.
Not a clue who you are, and while I firmly believe honesty is the best policy, you’re not obligated to tell anybody your personal details. Especially when you’re afraid of being tracked down (it’s not likely, but I understand this fear, too). One year of age really doesn’t matter?? (Unless its 17->18) and lying about gender shouldn’t matter if you’re not doing it out of malicious intent. Your lies don’t seem even worth noting tbh.
Still, you suffered for it, and if making this post helps you on your path to recovery then I’m glad you made it and I hope you travel safely on that road, no matter what comes. I hope you find yourself surrounded by people who love you and care about you, people who can help you w/ healthcare, and that you find the secret to helping yourself.
Safe travels.
weird flex but ok
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Lying about stuff like that never leads anywhere good. It’s so much easier to just not tell people things which are objectively none of their dang business. At the very least it’s a quick way to identify creepers; if somebody gets pushy and insists on knowing stuff like that about you, that shows you know you don’t need them in your life.
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whispers as not to interrupt Do you guys have any of that powdered cheddar stuff?
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What I just read from all this doesn’t seem to be a huge deal. Honestly, no one on this game deserves to know who you are IRL if you don’t want them to know. It’s a video game, a hobby. Not your life, and you have zero obligation to explain to strangers over the internet who you are and your story. I don’t enjoy telling people about who I am either. I can have friends on this game without telling them my life story. Hell, I won’t even tell people my IRL name.
Now as for the lying part. I mean… I guess that’s bad. Next time just tell these people “Nope.” That you do not wish to explain to them who you are, your story or whatever. That is the best thing you could have done instead of lying. Now if they can’t accept that? Screw them then. Move on to a better group of online friends.
I don’t like sharing details about myself either but I have a big mouth so if you’re around me enough you’ll know my life story ![:sweat_smile:](https://d38bqls1q93fod.cloudfront.net/en/wow/images/emoji/twitter/sweat_smile.png?v=6" ":sweat_smile:")
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This seems like a strange place to post this. Regardless if you’re trying to clear the air or not, something that happened 10 years ago is all but forgotten by 99 percent of the people you interacted with.
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Sorry, wrote this up when I was heading to bed. Normally I’m better at my writing.
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I hope you feel better man. Also, sorry for your loss. Try not to stress the past too much, you lied but you didn’t do it to hurt others as far as I can tell. Move forward with a new slate – lessons learned.
Thank you all of you for being positive with this, rather odd sort of forum post. It’s been ten years this is true, however the memories and mistakes are hard to move past for someone like me. I haven’t been able to clear my name by posting my side of events until I had the right state of mind.
Sadly, too little too late I guess. I’m still an active WoW player, obviously by my level and ilevel on my rogue. Just as casual though. Not able raid so I decided to just become an altoholic making a few characters a month most of which are above or at 110. My father, had another heart attack which lead to him dying. The doctors tried for 45 minutes to bring him back. They did everything they could. The normal time is 30 before there’s no hope. He died fighting. Thank you Sef, for your words. Just kind of hard for me to forgive myself for doing something I frown on now adays.
Forgive jaself, mon. Ja can’t change de past, but ja can learn from it and move on (and it sounds like ja learned from it). Lay down dat burden, and breathe. We all do somethin’ from time t’ time we look back on an’ cringe. Dat you got de self-awareness to realize it was cringeworthy says you be growin’ and you get de lesson from it. Good on ja, mon!
I be sorry about ja father. I’ve lost my IRL parents, too, and it don’ matter what age ja be when it happens, it hurts deep and cruel. May Bwonsamdi guide him safe to de otha side.
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My dad would have loved to read that, thank you, it is hard to move forward when that little voice in your head is screaming at you that it is your fault for everything. I know it’s true that I did do something I regret to this day, but all I wanted from this post, was to clear the air finally, even if it didn’t matter anymore. You all are so supportive so far. So again, thank you all. Rakshishi, you’re amazing dad woulda loved to see Bwonsamdi, and he would’ve loved to read this.
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I don’t know you, but you just got to forgive yourself and move on. We all do stupid things in this game, we all just need to learn and go forward. It seems that you’re in the process of that.
Best thing you can do in this game is tell the truth about yourself…or just not share details if you’re not comfortable around the people asking. There are lots of jerks on wow but also lots of good people if you look hard enough…or just land in the correct pug. Be cautious about who you trust, get to know people for a bit before you decide to say any important details.
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All in all I dont think this is as bad as you might feel it is. Not to say that your feelings or thoughts are wrong, because they’re not and no one can tell you how to feel besides yourself.
After reading through that I would just try to move on and know that its not as bad as you think it is. Hell I’ll even RP with ya if you catch me or see me on. No one should be judged on past mistakes. Hope you feel better at the end of the day though.
Thanks for the offer, I’ve been spending a lot of time lately on my warrior, same guild as my rogue. If you see Juuka about feel free to whisper me idm the chance to give RP with strangers a go again. Even if I’ve been spending a lot of time focusing on catching my warrior up to my rogue. Also thank you for the kind words, sorry it’s taken me a while to get a reply going.
IRL got me in a daze, my mother and brother kidnapped me on my 27th birthday on the 26th and made me go be jolly for a while. It was a nice attempt but I ended up catching food poisoning. Heh… My luck eh?