Hello! I’d like to preface this by saying I typically wouldn’t make a post like this, but I’m sincerely at a loss of how to feel and what to do. This is no means meant to be senseless venting regarding Moon Guard, but rather exhaustion.
I’m not a Moon Guard native. I, like a lot of others came over from other roleplay servers. I came over after being told how active, friendly, and immersive the community was. This was three years ago. Since? I’ve made perhaps 12 different types of characters, all various races, classes, backgrounds. I’ve given each character weeks to months, attempting to make progress. I was told I needed to get out there to get solid roleplay, so I did. These are the issues I’ve been running into the last three years, on many characters:
I walk up constantly. I prefer walk-ups more than any other type of roleplay. I usually walk up to people whose characters seem interesting and are looking for long-term. I want to say, nearly half of my interactions have resulted to someone logging of in the middle of roleplay without a single OOC heads up. I have never had this happen on any other server, in eight years of roleplay. It continues to be an issue, every time I return back to Moon Guard. It does not matter the type of character either. I can only assume it is when it’s clear ERP is probably not on the table.
I’ve joined I believe around six minor and major guilds on Moon Guard, in hopes of keeping a storyline. It all begins the same: They’re interested in my character, but OOCly talk to me as if they are superior. They act interested in my character, impressed by my liking for lore, then the moment my character is accepted, they no longer exist to be more than a number on a roster. I’ve joined three of the ‘major’ guilds here, who seem to only go to major server events, and expect you to try to infiltrate their years-long cliques and if you cannot? They usually respond with: “We don’t hand hold.” There is a fundamental difference between hand holding, and offering a space people can actually include themselves in. I’ve recently tried again, to be informed in order to join a guild, I must attempt to track when their officers log in and hope I can snag one for an interview, despite the fact they have me on discord and could arrange from there. I do not stand the want for new members, then the resilience in allowing them to be in your community. Mind you, this post is the farthest ‘trouble’ I’ve ever made, usually I just politely dismiss myself, after requesting roleplay a handful of times.
Main Character Syndrome
Personally? My favorite trope is roleplaying the quirky comedic relief side-character, or the villainous voice which stands beside a leader. These characters are looked over and drowned out by ‘main characters’ who are typically a lustful narcissist, with a secret hidden darkness, roleplayed by someone who usually says they’re kind and supportive, but still manages to speak down to you.
I’ve found an abundance of these. I find them nearly everywhere, and when I ask to be given a chance, I am usually given a list of what my character can do to basically ‘earn’ their way into casual interaction. I am told what my character’s can do to catch their attention. The sad part is? I’ve tried it, several times I’ve used these hooks which just feed into the ego of a character, only for them to eat up the attention, and shrug at my characters who do not attempt to yank the spotlight.
I cannot say if my side characters are just ‘boring’, maybe they are? Although, the second I try them in cross-faction, or on other roleplay servers, suddenly the issues vanish within minutes. Which leads me to believe it’s Moon Guard’s culture. Although, I could be wrong.
Why not make your own guild?
I’ve tried. I’ve tried four times. Every time, people from major projects like SLP have reached out to me. I accepted twice, each time my guildies were treated like actual pawns. I spoke to a leader of a project once, who had decided to write out how my guild was suppose to react to something, and basically hand me a script to convey to my guildies who are the time were also new to Moon Guard. I’ve tried creating ones on both Horde and Alliance; both times I’ve been bombarded by larger projects who speak down to us or attempt to use as props in a campaign instead of allowing us to just become part of a community.
This is no spite to SLP either, I have several friends who hold positions there, but it comes to no surprise as I’ve also vented to them regarding it. I eventually gave up after creating my last guild, in which I just simply didn’t have the will power to attempt to make it work.
Overall? I’m tired. I see such beautiful events, I see a community that absolutely does have some diamonds in the rough. - But for a community which prides itself on its open nature, world events, and kindness, I’ve been met again and again with just being treated like the dork in school trying to sit at the popular kids table. I want to love roleplay again. I want to sincerely immerse myself in lore, storyline, and bring that sidekick energy to others roleplay or guilds, but it seems like the best answer I’ve gotten is: “Try WRA Horde.” - Which I have. Went well. I just like Alliance races more.
I apologize for the length and rant. It really is out of character for me to make a post like this, but I’m at a total loss. If someone can tell me what I’m doing wrong? Any advice? Anything that can make Moon Guard a viable server to someone like myself? Thank you.