I had to put up with unpleasantness IRL, and by the time the adrenaline levels came down enough for me to try and play, then I got warmed up, it was like 11 PM. I played 2 comp games as DPS, 1 as support, and then 2 QP support games. My sole victory tonight was the first QP match. I’m exhausted and disgruntled and my mind and spirit are overall withered so here we go
I insist people always wait until after I die to a thing before they try and do anything about it themselves
Orisa stands RIGHT THERE as Reaper gets closer and closer chasing me around with his jackhammer boots until I have no mobility left and then he ults and I die and THEN she stuns him. Now that his ult is almost finished
Genji screams at me and tries to decapitate me in the middle of my own team, we run around for a couple of seconds, I die, and THEN everyone turns around
I ping Widow. I ping Widow. I ping Widow. Nothing. And then finally I DIE TO WIDOW because I was forced into her LoS for a moment. And then someone decides maybe we should be doing something about the Widow
Yes yes I WOULD be the one doing that myself. But we’re on defense and I’m trying to help our tank live for 0.00001 second longer while they kiss the enemy spawn doors. Even though most of the enemy team is probably over here breaking my other teammates’ skulls against the payload
No these are not necessarily exact things that happened tonight. But things somewhat like this do happen. Just often enough for me to notice. Trust me. I’M VERY SANE CAN’T YOU TELL 
Also just in general when an ult happens and I am the sole person to die to it even though everyone else is right there too. I’m probably too busy pinging the enemy about to ult over and over and over like a bot and that’s why it happens. Never mind the fact that we could have easily prevented it in the first place if we would just. TURN AROUND. FOR. ONE. S. E. C. O. N. D.
I know. That’s the problem. I’m trying to communicate these things too much. Attempting teamwork to the best of my limited ability. Maybe I should stop pinging flankers and everything. Let everyone else guess why their heals are on hold. Maybe then I can at least focus enough to put up a fight. Or stop pinging “FALL BAAaaAAaaAAaaAACK” and “CoMe To Me FoR hEaLiNg” while everyone plays hide and seek with the corner. Focus my energy 100% on slaughtering some combination of Genji and Tracer and Reaper and Echo and an ENTIRE D.VA or whatever else is buzzing around behind us instead. We probably won’t make progress until the pests are dead anyway
Or. I just need to start flanking more. If they keep ganging up on us in the BACK (while I heal my co-support and they don’t heal me of course as I have mentioned), then maybe the solution is to like. Leave the back, man. Other support will be OK. Eventually. Probably. Not like we’re thriving as it is anyway
Or maybe since I’M not in the back, all the pests will ALSO leave the back. Because I’M not there. And they want ME. 
SPECIFICALLY So now instead of being behind US, they’ll be behind their OWN guys, spending the rest of their lives searching for me. Until I die. And then they come back, but now this time they EXPECT me to potentially try a flank. And then after the match, maybe we won, maybe we lost, but I’m TOTALLY getting reported because I did something weeeiiiirrrrddd
I guess my support match was ALMOST a win. Just a hair away from victory. Even though people were feeeeeeeeeeeding. Maybe I should feel proud of myself, that I tried my best, but IDK. I probably choked and lost it. I was panicking because the goal was right there and the fight was going on forever, and I was trying to juggle keeping the tank up and trying desperately to make anything die. Because the win was RIGHT. THERE. And then our tank died because I maybe thorn’d a little too much, then I remember pulling our Ashe onto the cart right at the end, not realizing she had her ult. I think there was only a couple of really low HP squishies left. And then she ulted before dying and Bob ran right past the cart because I probably ruined her aim
Euuuuggghhh. Just a bad night. That’s it. That’s all. I’ll go to sleep later and then it’ll be a whooooole new day. No more nonsense. My squishy teammates WON’T actively avoid all my healing and blow up in 0.00000000000001 of a second. I WILL be able to pull people in time. I WOOON’T miss over half my whips on Brig. And we’ll have a tank with us. And the enemy team won’t be diving diving diving all at once over and over and over in every match 
And of course nobody will go spouting Neanderthal nonsense IRL demoralizing me before I even open the game, either
(I accumulated a LOT of OWL tokens before we got cross-progression and went on a team skin shopping spree right before the merge, no need to panic)