I am not enjoying OW as much bcos: I am mentally exhausted by Competitive;
- if I manage to do my things in matches, and teammates know what they are doing, I feel powerful. I get to experience and learn something more creative. I really do feel like there is something more to discover when I win in matches.
- on the other side, if I am limited to what I am doing in a match. But teammates have no idea what is going on. Peeling, flexing, flanking, ult managing, all but failed attempts. Sometimes it is 6-15 minutes of feeling torture. It always end up ugly with toxicity of bullying, framing and blaming. But I still learn from experience.