Sometimes my aim is terrible. Sometimes I surprise myself. I’m probably the most easily countered widow in the world. I tend to stand still and try to land my headshot.
Too much FFA has made me more comfortable fighting at closer range. Simultaneously, I’m worse at long shots.
I think my main issue isn’t necessarily how “good” I am. No, it’s that I’m intimidated by QP in general. I know I’m overthinking this, but I don’t want to be embarrassed playing widow. I don’t want to deal with Sombra, whose appearance will be inevitable, and I don’t want to deal with the toxicity of my teammates, also inevitable. 
But, all that said, I still want to play. 
Just trying to psych myself up for a triumphant return to QP. My skills on widow could be better, could be worse. I am who I am, and I’m probably making too much of QP.
I’m just terrified of the possibility of throwing or worse, someone telling me to switch. It’s easy in FFA where it’s just me messing around, but QP seems to have gotten so serious.
I’m not kidding myself. I’ll never be a Kephri or Kenzo, but I want to be a good widow that can reliably help my teammates. 
I just had to say that. Thanks for listening.