I’ve caused too much burden to too many people. Pain, many people experienced and suffered because of me is too enormous. There is no way I can imagine how large all the pain that I would have to endure would be in the future either. Even the remaining part of my life would be burden to other people. I can’t do anything due to my poor health condition. I cannot read any book nor write anything either. Don’t be too sad. Don’t blame on anyone. It is the fate.Cremate me. And leave only a very small tomb stone at some place near my house. It’s a very old thought.